Gateway to the Multifaceted

Three Thousand Pesos worth of Ownership

2011-11-04T10:57:00.003+08:00

Congratulations! I'm now a proud owner of Aboitiz Power Corporation.

Maybe I should change my profile on Facebook: Kimoy Tolentino a travaillé au sein de IBM et propriétaire de Aboitiz Power Corp.

cool...

-my next frontier... JOLLIBEE-

A Note to the Drama Junkie

2011-11-02T11:05:00.002+08:00

Seryoso? Susuntukin ako ng nilalandi mo?

Please lang, the last time I checked, I woke up to the 21st century where people settle differences with words and not violence. So savage. But I'm not surprised, saan ka ba nag-aral?

And don't ever think na papatulan ko kayo, I'm not willing to sacrifice my bone structure for someone as insignificant as you. Ikaw? Oh please, you're so not worth it.

-tsss-

Two cents on Health Ironies and a Major Overhaul

2011-08-29T16:18:00.004+08:00

When was the last time I was here?

Well my dear blog, a lot of things has changed since my last article. In fact, I have this plan of reworking you, a few changes on the side wouldn't hurt, won't it?

(Actually in my head, I'm planning a major overhaul of this thing; the feel, the content, the design. It's time to say goodbye, but that's not happening anytime soon since my laptop, Bibi, was never revived, and I would have to replace her - but I don't have the money yet.)

Anyway, so last Friday I spent my dinner with two of my office mates. I was supposed to eat kilawin and rice; however, the fatigue overrode my hunger and I just wanted to sleep. Out of respect, I waited for my office mates to finish eating their.. well... "dinner." One ate palabok, the other ate spaghetti and chocolate cake. I didn't get the spaghetti and chocolate cake part, but my officemate assures me it's a normal thing: "ganito kaya talaga, parang kiddie party lang."

I totally didn't get that. So far nobody has bought my idea about completing food molecules. People at the office often notice how voracious I eat, but I never got fat. I keep telling them that the reason why I don't get fat is because I eat a lot. Nobody took that seriously.

Well it does sound illogical, but if you're a chemist, you'd understand that when eating a lot, you're giving your body enough nutrients to create an energy molecule. Energy molecules are what the body expenses on daily activities. Everything left behind become waste, or worse, fat, that gets stored in the body in case you will be eating something else later that can make it a complete energy molecule...

Hmm, okay I'm no nutritionist, but that's the way I see it. On the other end though, you keep eating complete molecules and create a lot of energy, but you don't use it, you'll end up fat the same. So my mantra in health, eat right and exercise.

Just my two cents.

-major overhaul coming up! ... in a few months. hehe-

Lara Fabian and a New Chapter of Life

2011-04-21T18:30:00.005+08:00

okay. fire breathing ectomorph admits to spew the whole thing before, but ecto heard it again today, with the vid and all, and it's nicer. histrionics are perfect. them says it's too much, that she's more of acting than singing, but Lara Fabian Caruso amazed me. I liked it. song ended with an Edith Piaf flare.

oh by the way, a new chapter just started in this book im workin on called life. i'll divulge on details when people stop talking.

-je suis malade-

A Glass Cabana and Potassium Water

2011-01-03T13:20:00.002+08:00

I believe a photograph is beautiful if it inspires. These stills from some photographers made me go rummaging for words, blogging in my cyber archive.

I'm not inspired because im in some of the photos, I'm inspired because the photos captured emotions through time. it's like a time-and-motion study. In ten years, im sure these photos will plant a smile on my face.

-les flots-

Five Munches Worth of Goodies for the Hearty Eater

2010-11-05T05:54:00.006+08:00

today, i got 5 pieces of calamay goodies from ilocos from an acquaintance at work. READ: ACQUAINTANCE... not even my friend or anything.

how thoughtful yeah? come to think of it, it's not everyday that I receive anything from a half-stranger, something that i really enjoyed getting (or eating for that matter)... hmmm.

they say the best way to a man's heart is through his stomach. wala naisip ko lang.

calamay goodies! goody goody goo! you flip and you flap, and you twirl, and you pop it into your mouth and you munch munch with a squirk squirk in the mouth mouth.

fun!

-ilocano delicacies are love-

Four Negastars and a White Dwarf

2010-10-10T16:55:00.004+08:00

Ooof. Too much negativity.

social networking sites on the Internet have become venues for major major ranting. acquaintances have been a major source of stress for me lately - whine here, whine there, in the office, at home, at the supermarket... It's a very negative externality, and there's no government to help mitigate the spread of more.

If, say, you are a fun-loving positivist like me, would it be logical to delete these people off your friends list?

Hmm...

Sayang naman ang photos at updates.

But i find it hard to understand why people whine and throw false threats in the air instead of addressing the root cause of a problem, facing an enemy, or compromising...

Maybe not as open as me - but then again, 2 feet is the radius of my personal bubble. who am i to say?

-negastars explode-

One Nervous Breakdown per Scoop

2010-09-05T15:10:00.002+08:00

I've been eating a lot lately. If it's stress manifesting, I am surprising myself. The fire-breathing ectomorph binges, particularly on complex carbohydrates, saturated fats, incomplete proteins. Im usually cool with everything (at least lately), and im usually confident of the things i do. but now, more than ever, im biting my fingernails after every scoop of a pop dessert they call scrambler. Im nervous - see previous entry.

after a year and a half, im suffering whiplash. and then a backfire. a year and a half and it all comes back to me. neutron star.

...

-hk may not happen for me-

Mooning One Wish that Could Change Everything

2010-09-02T19:24:00.005+08:00

Gahd, the suspense is killing me.

Please Lord, just this once, grant me a dream.

-hopeful-

Tweedledeedumming on Six Things before Breakfast

2010-03-14T19:17:00.006+08:00

lost in a string of thoughts that go nowhere. all too rich and profound. i find myself in my own wonderland.

kimoj in wonderlund.

the reasons why i think of 6 impossible things before breakfast: voedsel, werk, studie, levensstijl, gechtslachtsleven, en geld.

I need my Mad Hatter. The post is open. ;p

-afgemat-

Jadedness on a Couple of Indecisions

2010-02-27T16:26:00.004+08:00

things change. people leave, some stay. brood over.

at the brink of what seems to be the threshold of patience for me, i have this forever moment, a time in slow mo - it made me re-think everything. look back and analyze.

what has this experience made me. H. Vampiricus. as i thirst for blood it all comes crashing down on me.

YOU HAVE STALED.

and at the resources you have right now, there's nothing much you can do about it.

-jaded-

Four Novels and Transcendence by Words

2010-02-10T17:47:00.004+08:00

Paige sees herself, younger, walking up the stairs out of the shop. She readies her gun. She sees her younger self look up to her, an emotion on her face resembles fear. She wanted to shoot the young Paige, free her of the sorrow that will stretch to her future for two centuries.
-The Starlight Crystal (Christopher Pike)
...

Velutha swims through the river, finds her at the banks, and makes love to her, for all time's sake.
-God of Small Things (Arundhati Roy)
...

The goon points a gun on his nape, shouts, and fires. Hassan was gone.
The Kite Runner (Khaled Hosseini)
...

Then the woman stiffens, Henry puts his right foot forward and the floor creaks. She turns, and it's Clare, Clare old! She walks up to him slowly and Henry catches her on his arms...
The Time Traveler's Wife (Audrey Niffenegger)
...

Cathartic.

The four stories that made me cry. Go get yourselves a copy. ;p

-stirred-

Five Inches Short from that Long-Lived Runway

2010-02-03T16:34:00.005+08:00

still out there.

ho well. i guess it's just the time of the year... read: Valentine's. it's always a sad sad holiday.

at least i have my cheese floss with me. hmmm..

so i went to this go-see for a casting call for models. i was in vtr, and they took pictures and stuff. i thought it was gonna be fun, you know, like how they pictured it in the movies or the tv shows like gossip girl... wala lang. it bored me to death.

yeah you're surrounded by a posse of greek gods and goddesses, but i felt more.. alone. like im so out of place.

eff. anyways they used me on the pictures which they cataloged somewhere. i went home with Php3,000.00 and a sore back. how lame.

i need to have my adrenals checked. something's wrong with my serotonin level.

-boooore-

Barrenness in a Shush Sea of People

2010-01-27T14:52:00.003+08:00

I can't relate.

...

humans are a sophisticated society. company is, therefore, a necessity. i am human. i need company.

...

lately, i've been feeling so out there. it's like being in a sea of people where nobody notices you, tiny fish in the head lights. it's like trying to tune in on a different frequency.

i dunno, it feels... so gray.

lately, i've been feeling so... out... of place.

-mute-

Four Levels of Unanticipated Animosity

2010-01-18T20:07:00.004+08:00

I LOST MY WALLLEEEET!!

like two days ago. i was going home from work, and i can't exactly remember where it might have been lost because i was too sleepy to care. anyways, now in retrospect, i think it's either when i was walking through the every morning chaos in philcoa, or when i rode the tryc back to my apartment in UP Village.

i mean, sheheeet. all my id's are there: my sss id which took years before it materialized, my tin card which i always substituted for a visitor's pass when i go somewhere's, my voter's card! just when the elections are coming.. but the worst of all, is my UP ID...

wait. i think im gonna cry...

*pauses to hold the tears back...*

*sniff sniff*

uhm.

it's just that my UP card is my most immediate proof of me being a UP student. I mean, i could just pull it out, and it gives you the quickest testament of my college life: every bit of scratch, every blot of bleaching ink, each sticker for each semester... i mean, it just gives you everything. ugh... and now it's gone, and its irreplaceable.

like, when i lost it, i just let out a huge huge bellow. i think i said FUCK. like... FU-HUUUUCKK... like that.

...

anyways, i went out with my girls that afternoon so i could stop thinking about my lost effecti. it was fun, like fun fun. nobody beats old friends...

hay.

so now i start recollecting my id's... at the moment i feel so so anonymous. i hope recollecting my ID's won't be as hard as the first time.

and oh, im still remotely wishing that the person who has my wallet would give it back... just in case.. you know. i leave it to the cosmos, please be nice to me.

-anonymous-

One Possible End to My Catharsis

2010-01-15T15:50:00.003+08:00

auhh.. sometimes you will need a dingdong from the outside to realize that after all, you're just living a delusion. seemed fun, all this time, then this... dingdong. ringing in my ears, growing, louder and louder. it's so inviting, but what a pain to follow the siren song and leave everything behind.

dingdong.

i can keep fooling myself that it's fun living like a vampire, but for how long will i be creative enough to maintain this illusion? the dingdong is whispering good things in my ear, like a devil in angel wings, and im none the wiser.

dingdong.

should i? it's seems fun there...

I'll just turn, and take a glimpse, maybe..

-blinding light-

Two Chat Threads on Facebook

2010-01-14T16:39:00.003+08:00

One day on Facebook...

Ayen

You didnt say "yeah" kaya to me!

Hahahaha!

Defensive noh. Haha.

4:09pmKimoy

I still have it in my sent items

haha

i'll sue you for libel

4:09pmAyen

Hahahaha! Sige show meee!

I didn't get that, sweaaar :P

4:10pmKimoy

HAHA

anyways

what are we going to do ba?

4:10pmAyen

What do you feel like doing?

4:11pmKimoy

anything that involves dinner...

actually kayo bahala. i'll go wherever you will go (way up high... or down low...)

4:12pmAyen

lets just drink at Tin's?

4:12pmKimoy

hmm... okay. ;p

4:13pmAyen

Didn't Pia tell you its an overnight thing?

4:14pmKimoy

hmmm... im not sure (hehe, i'll go back to my cellphone in a bit.)

pero if overnight, then that means kelangan ko magdala ng stuyff?

4:15pmAyen

Clothes? hahaha. Yeah.

I'll be sleeping over at Hannah's nga on Friday eh.

So I have a lot of stuff Hahaha

4:16pmKimoy

cge cge

do you happen to know where tin lives? i dunno how to get there..

4:17pmAyen

she lives in Manila

I can't remember where exactly

asking her if we can meet up somewhere we're all familiar with...

...

ON another part of the FB world...

Tin

HOY QUINITO

4:02pmKimoy

who's this?

(LOL)

4:02pmTin

WTF

4:02pmKimoy

what's up my friend?

4:02pmTin

youre not coming??

4:03pmKimoy

huh? who told you that?

4:05pmTin

ayen!

4:05pmKimoy

that's not true

she texted asking if im coming

i said YEAH

ayen talaga..

4:06pmTin

WUSHU..

really ha..

4:09pmKimoy

oo nga. and let's not talk about it muna kasi if we do, mapupurnada...

basta im coming

4:10pmTin

WOW

may ganung term

purnada

haha

4:10pmKimoy

yes my friend. it's a tagalog word meaning... macacancel.

4:10pmTin

eh kasi ayen's asking what our gameplan is

or at least an idea what we're gonna do

haha

4:11pmKimoy

ako anything, basta may dinner

hey tin, can you bring your camera, i just wanna see something

4:12pmTin

hahaha

ok good!

sige i can

overnight to ah

4:12pmKimoy

HA?

overnight ba?

4:13pmTin

oooooooo oooooooooo

4:14pmKimoy

so magdadala ko ng stuff?

4:16pmKimoy

ok as per ayen magdadala ako ng stuff...

yey! im excited!! i thought dinner lang eh, hehe

4:17pmTin

hindi!!

it's more of the after dinner nga

haha

oh bring cards!

4:17pmKimoy

OF COURSE!

4:19pmTin

lets dinner somewhere muna

i can meet u guys somewhere

4:20pmKimoy

fine by me! coz come to think of it, i dunno exactly where you live hehe... (i used to think u lived in this cave somewhere in pantranco i dunno..)

4:23pmTin

CAVE?

hahaha

ah no dear

i upgraded na

HAHAHAHA!

4:23pmKimoy

HAHAHA!

4:27pmTin

anyway

i have a meeting na

ill see u guys on sat!

im excited

4:28pmKimoy

ok!

c ya!

...

Wooot! Im gonna have some fun on sat. you know where i'll be at!

-excited-

Three Text Messages Before My Bittersweet Vindication

2010-01-09T19:23:00.003+08:00

Chill my friend. your hormones are in overdrive. it's not even valentine's yet. wait till February and we'll see.

it's my game now, bitch.

-follow me-

One Deleted Blog and a Few Lives Spared

2009-11-22T15:53:00.003+08:00

Give me more reasons to believe that leaders are indeed BORN, not MADE.

EDIT: ok, I just wrote an entire venomous article about how the difference in educational backgrounds impact future leadership effectiveness; however, i am reminded that my blog is being read (and heavily pondered upon) by a number of easily-impressionable people, so, I deleted the entire article..

Way to go me, I'm sparing the world from a harsh reality.

Now that I think of it, that blog was 8 paragraphs long. But it's riddled by hard-hitting facts that some people may just misunderstand...

better keep mum than speak the truth....

for the moment at least. *wink*

-wait till i get the microphone-

IFIC and a Hundred Steps Up My Fragmented Educational Ladder

2009-10-27T16:20:00.006+08:00

A breezy update:

"We will enroll you on our IFIC program, para syang part ng LOMA, pero tungkol sa Finance..."

I was told at work. I got so excited, because for the first time in months, I'm gonna start learning again, like I did in college! I miss college. I miss studying, I miss knowing things and making more sense of this world. Thank god I got this opportunity, and for the first time, I love my boss.

Yes, all the more to love my work. Aside from my brain needs, this will give me more reason to stay. I want to be more involved at work, to keep me from thinking of better-paying jobs out there. maybe i'll put some more titles under my belt to deserve my job more. after IFIC, maybe I'll take LOMA, and then who knows, maybe the CFA program if money and mind permits.

I said "Yes, I'm up for it!"

I love that fate has heard me. I want to make more sense of what I'm doing now so that I can rationalize with myself that despite my money problems, work will make me whole. It will teach me, and maybe, educate and compensate for the lack of more relevant stuff my education has failed to provide.

I can't wait till I get my first materials. It's like going to school again, i'm so excited... I'm gonna buy multi-colored stabilos and sign pens and book marks and macchiato with cream...

-my sun is shining brightly-

A Testimonial and Hundreds of Lazy Days in the Past

2009-10-25T14:31:00.005+08:00

I was rummaging through my things and I found this article...

...

"...What you see is what you get. There are people who embody that saying - those whom we meet and we immediately know what they're like as a person.

Keneth, or Kimoy as we fondly call him, looks like one such individual. Lean, chinito, and fair for a guy, Kimoy was born and raised in the place that has made kapeng barako famous. Living alone has made him both independent and wise beyond his years. A self-proclaimed home buddy, his hobbies consist of movie marathons, enjoying his favorite food, and spending time with his friends. Kimoy works just as hard as everyone, but what sets him apart from the rest is his brilliance with languages. He has developed quite an intense love affair with all things French, and he continues to learn more by the day.

But Kimoy's best asset is his sincerity as a person. Easy to get along with, genial, and perpetually unassuming, Kimoy makes people feel comfortable around him. Our friendship, which began that one November afternoon, has seen the passage of many years. Over coffee and the occasional shuffling of cards, one catches a clearer glimpse of this boy who has turned into a young man.

With Kimoy, despite how he looks, what you see is NOT what you always get. beyond the laughter and the cheerful persona is a person who has stood witness to the darker side of life. And with all the things that the world has brought to his table, Kimoy has struck a balance between being sanguine and melancholic; and being hopeful yet practical. His dreams are big but tampered by a kick of reality that he has come to know so well.

To Kimoy, thank you. our friendship has seen many beginnings, as well as ends. Now that we find ourselves at the threshold of the real world, we take the future into our hands and turn it into our present. Move forward bravely, but keep the past at arms length, including your memories of our laughter during those long, lazy afternoons..."

...

A testimonial I found on my school's annual. This was written by Christine Ablaza, a very close friend I met back in college. Gives me chills every time I read it.

This is the best testimonial I ever had.

More power to you, friends, I'm so glad I have you in my life.

-in excelsis-

Money, Work, and the Many Reasons I Feel so Jaded

2009-10-19T10:36:00.005+08:00

let's talk about work.

remember i work as a service associate for french processes? My exact title is French Service Associate 1 - Montreal Segregated Funds, just so you know. Sounds out there, but it's just your usual business processor, only everything i lay my hands on is in french.

now unlike most of us, or at least most that i know, i am lucky to have found a work that makes me feel proud i have it. i love my work, for a multitude of reasons.

one, it rationalizes the four years i spent at the University, shitting away in my own multilingual world. my major was economics, my minor was french, and whenever someone asks me what my degree is, I usually end up getting a frowny face, or a hundred and one pieces of advice why i should shift somewhere else. im proud to say that i didn't waste all those years for nothing. this is a job ive been groomed for.

two, i love work because this is relatively, only ever so slightly, easier than my previous jobs. when i graduated college, i was immediately flung into the dog-eat-dog world of real estate. i worked as a collections associate, and man, was it the most demoralizing work in this entire universe. you cater to clients who are understandably very finicky. Human nature dictates that you go tiger-mode when other people hold your money. In this scenario, i used to be the "other people" and they were the tigers. i remember my worst day, it was my birthday, and i spent the whole morning rationalizing with an extremely angry and fiery client. I was arguing that I don't have the payment for her condominium yet, when she's claiming she'd already submitted it and she wants the receipt. by the time work is over that day, i found myself slumped on the blue-slate world of the toilets, thinking to myself... why? why this? after a dozen more beatings, and four months later, i found myself excusing my manager and submitting my resignation letter.

I was free, but only for a moment. the relief was fleeting. i had to find work because it was nearing the holidays and i desperately need the money. i was then employed as a technical support agent, and for days i talked for 9 straight hours over the avaya phone, trying to figure out how my stupid client bugged out his computer. i left two months later due to acute laryngitis.

so you see, what im doing now is less stressful than my previous ones. and those two reasons are the just those that stand out, among other things.

BUT... A HUGE and in ALL-CAPS "BUT..."

disclaimer: mood changes here. negativity imminent.

I AM NOT HAPPY.

I developed this mantra: "everything for the pursuit of happiness..." like in the movie. but yes it's true, that in this life, we live for our own happiness; otherwise, you've wasted a life.

Im not happy. Im stressed to my limits... not by my work, but my life.

I love my work more than my life... isn't that a bad thing? A free-spirit told me, "Leave before your work eats you. You should always put your life first," It's not that easy, J.

I am extremely stressed about managing my finances. I love my work, but after all, im still a lowly employee who rank-and-file; i dont get as much as a management trainee, or researcher. i think, for the 16 years of quality education under my belt, im being slightly undercompensated.

"Kimoy libre naman, LP pa lang richie rich ka na..." little miss A told me.

"Not really, believe it or not, im just making Php*insert figure here* a month," I replied. she double took and said, "Really? In IBM, if you're literate in some other language, they make one and a half times as much..."

I said, "I know."

Money, despite it's superficiality, is unfortunately my life's reality.

I talked to some other colleague who's about to resign and will be leaving for another country. She told me, "... I have goals eh, i want to do them before I turn 25. And I think I'm running out of time...' roughly... She says she might be pursuing her dreams abroad. i told her im very happy for her. and i envy her... "I wish i have the guts to follow my dreams."

actually, i wish i have the money to follow my dreams.

I want to go abroad, take up a masters degree, and come back when Im more knowledgeable. but that would command as much money as i would make in two years, at the rate im being paid right now.

uff. it's all about money. i kept telling everyone around me at work, "you know what guys, our salary must be lifestyle-based..." of course that's unfair, but in my defense, you won't always find an econ grad who's literate in french right? im only saying. i muse to myself, thinking yes i do love my work, but does it love me as much? if it doesn't understand that im a very cosmopolitan person, it would never understand how much i need the money. my urbanite is very hard to understand for most people.

"Hindi nga lahat may increase! Depende yun..."

Depende yun saan? sa pagkatao?? i think it's clear that some people are given more preference than others, which is inequitable.

"F its d pay dat's worrying u, name it and mayb we can do a compromise. But rest assurd, it will b highr. And in our call center, we offer othr competitve benefits othr than ung salary. Pde ka din namin i endorse 4 trainings abroad or f u want to stay hir, we can offer u loans or help u out in d financial aspect kung gusto mo mag-master..." a very long text message from a talent-supply representative from another company. "i'll kip my lines open fr 2 more mnths, if we recruit nobdy, the job wil be reverted back to canada. sayang naman ung exams mo. remember, we can offer u bettr benefits plus a signing bonus."

this was my correspondence a month ago with Dencomm Philippines, a call center, just before I was regularized... the offer was very tantalizing, but i declined it because it's not that easy to leave a job you love so much. plus it's a call center; even though he told me i'll only render voice half of the time, it's still a call center. im done with it, it killed my throat.

huff.

but then again, i neeed the money. i dont wanna sound greedy, but i need as much before i can focus. Im tired of asking my mum for ti-ching.

but i love my work. im not planning to leave anytime soon.

unless.

-canada-

One Birthday and a Thousand Bright Lights

2009-10-18T18:31:00.006+08:00

Wooot!

yes, darryl is younger than i am. he just turned 22...

the people: me, aizel goldfish, len the termite, ayen is back, and darryl the birthday creature!

the event: darryl's birthday!! woot!

the place: the gasthof in makati. the food: fish fillet in aoli, baby back ribs bbq, pork whathaveyou, and puttanesca ?? (im not sure, it's pretentious). the music: house mash. the booze: bacardi 151. need i say more?

oh, and this german beer that tastes a bit heavier than our san mig.

blast!

till next year darryl! i have very high hopes for you.

nah just foolin around.

-i miss linnie! and len!-

One Cyclone and a Sea of Muddy Flood Water

2009-10-04T15:17:00.008+08:00

you ever felt like time, despite the universal notion that it moves on one direction forever, warps itself backwards, loops, and then starts right back at a point in its history? like say if you moved forward with your life, suddenly time will play a trick on you, and you will find yourself back to point zero?

at the moment, almost 1,872,036 Filipinos feel that way, maybe even more as the day ages. I'm not directly affected by the cyclone that hit Manila the morning of September the 26th, so I'm only left to wonder how the million of dora-fied Filipinos feel at the moment. i wonder how it feels to have your stuff around one second, and then in a jiffy, it's floating away in the floodwaters. just imagine...

your collection of timed articles, clothes bought from this store and that, innocently sitting in your closet - gone. your most comfortable bed, shaped and morphed by the outline of your back as you slept those slumberfull years - gone. your dining table, withered by the constant bashing and clashing of silver spoons and china plates on evenings when you ate as a family - gone. your house, your tiny world in this vast ocean of matter and people - destroyed. brownie, your big auburn fur-ball, trained for months to teach itself how to pee on the dog toilet - drowned. your best friend, the hero who swam the murky brown waters to save a stranger - dead...

if you're lucky, you still have your family with you. if you're not, you only have mud in your hair and maybe filarial nematodes on your skin. actually, you're extremely unlucky if you're reading this article from the afterlife.

wow, that scared me a twittle bit.

anyways...

on a lighter, lighter note...

im gonna be regularized at work, for the first time in my corporate life. so... yey! i hope id get a decent increase on my salary, you know, to pay off the bills.... ;p

hmmm...

-i pray for the souls of those who perished in the floods of Ketsana-

A Thousand Words of Beating From Three Caligulas

2009-08-21T19:40:00.005+08:00

Friends?? Where art thou?

It's ayen's baby bro's birthday tomorrow, but i cant come; we'll have a go-see for my new pad. but i teeerrrrrribly miss my friends...

yesternight i got a tiny bit of a bashing from my officer because I allegedly sent rash and brash emails to my Quality Assurer. ... no comment.

ah wait meron pala.

i thank UP for giving me a backbone. and for all the slugs of the world, i can only pray for your souls.

wait...

i don't pray na pala.

good luck.

-this world is full of difficult people. learn how to deal-

One Gala Night on Three Buckets of SanMig

2009-08-16T17:26:00.004+08:00

Just when I thought I had pictures everywhere.. I mean all the snapping sounds preempted by blinding bright lights and the smell of neon... And just as today Im feeling all vain and self-absorbed... I can't find my photos.

So I grabbed. from jailin, melissa, and some other person...

wave 5 with ryan the canadian trainer...

I figured I must save for my own camera. Im tired of grabbing.. geezr it's like piracy.

i mean plagiarism.

hmmm... ok some photos are from my company's cocktail night at The Tent in Ortigas (yes, I spent a bit over 7k for my overalls... forgive me, but when was the last time I attended a gala event?)

We went to ABS after the event for cocktails, because the gala night could not afford cocktails for everyone (apparently), but unfortunately i do not have photos of that. but that's ok. some funs do not need photos to be remembered.

uber hot gurls... ;p

some cuts are from the previous escape to canyon cove (yes, im running out of social exercises)...

pathetic.

sshhh.

-tonight's gonna be a good night-

Twenty Seven Words of Incoherrence

2009-08-03T17:09:00.002+08:00

im naka-tenga sa school owned by my best buddy. bored. waiting for ayen to save my day... where is the loo? i have dry cough... honestly.

-random-

Moonlighting in Twenty Four Days of Hiatus

2009-07-15T19:22:00.003+08:00

roar! im officially a facebook ignoramus.. it's supposed to be easy right? so what's wrong with me...

as ive ranted since forever, bibi, my laptop still hasn't risen from the dead (you remember, i accidentally sat on her while she was innocently beeping and bleeping on my bed, doing my downloads...??). anyways, so i just realized a very practical correlation between laptop health and cyberspace savvy-ness... if laptop suddenly goes a-bug, cyberspace would be ebb away from your grasp, until you don't know it anymore... in short, no laptop, no facebook.

... *toink

hey watch out for my most recent faux-theory about ENDS and PROCESSES. i was so bored this weekend my mind went everywhere. bleh. at eto na ang bago sakin, im a theorist. im an intellectual. hello intellectual me!

ok gotta go sago!

-i wanna go luzon tripping like ayen did.-

Salty and Sandy Memories under the Summer Sun

2009-06-21T15:43:00.006+08:00

So, after a baker's dozen of mismatches, I finally found and brought home my cd full of photos from our summer outing at Canyon Cove. it's been aeons, but hey.

we left the Hub at around 8 in the morning, right after our friday shift, so imagine the biggest eye bags on earth. but good thing i power-napped at thea's crib, and relaxed some, and maybe snored some too. then a quick detour at mercury drug for all your summer whathavya's (ie moisturizers, tanners, food), and we're off to the exclusive paradise coves of Nasugbu.

the boys...

the gurls...

the us!!

when we arrived, what greeted us was an endless pavement baked by an afternoon sun (where's the sea???). maybe that was how the resort conditions the guests, because by the time we went to the assembly area (a huge room full of pristine white tables and chairs), we were aching for the beach. they fed us first though (let's not talk about the food, it's a summer spoiler). then some waiting for our room assignments, which was a bum because they segregated the boys from the girls... as if we won't find a way to ah...anyways, i think before everything, we had some sort of a program first to commence the whole thing. so we did this survivor-inspired game and some cheering, you know, the usual... so by then we were baked under the sun, and i was sporting this really good tan, and then we're off to the turquoise waters of the south china sea. yey! tssss.

in the evening, we strolled by the beach where i made shout-outs on the sand. it will be washed away by the high tides in the morning, but the memories will stay for sure (remember, everything i write gets everyone buzzing...).

then morning come, our usual breakfast fix (and by usual i mean.. USUAL). then we're off to the waters again! we had banana boat rides, water games, and some lovin... hehe ;p

before we knew it, we were packing our bags, leaving the cove (our room is as trashed as garbage could get. that's what you get when you put five crazy guys in a room and some girls haha) then we went straight to tagaytay where we shopped for pasalubong before we went home. we ate dinner at a burger strip on the outskirts of the city (i had mushroom burger and cucumbers) then back to the bus again for pictures and stuff, some traffic at the SLEX, and then we were back to our old office building, all tanned and still smelling salty and sandy.

ahhh. i love summer. the smell of sun-baked skin and hair seems so perfect for me. it's like ambrosia.

-l'ete me manquera-

Thirteen Thousand Silver Shreds on a Broken Glass

2009-06-18T19:22:00.004+08:00

i woke up from a dream where i was lost in a freezing cold hill in what appears to be the countryside of Nordic Europe. it was raining, and I was about to enter a frighteningly withering shack when I heard the pristine sound of glass cracking. I looked behind me, to the gray-blue countryside, and there, at the middle of a ness, was someone I knew, brandishing a long-nosed shot gun pointed at me. I only saw him stepping once toward me, when I tripped on a stump on the grass, felt like falling, and then suddenly woke up on my bed with my drapes aside the windows, and the sun waking me up for the first time in two months.

I was hungry like hell.

I slowly brought myself up against the wall beside my bed, looked at the blazing sunlight, stared at the silver linings of its rays, then got caught up on a stranger silver lining on the windows, stark, contrasting the soft and radiant wisps of the afternoon light. I scrambled off my bed, crawled to the windows, and scrutinized my room's windows like never before. there, on one of the windows half-opened to the outside, is a web of broken glass, spreading like veins on our victorian window panes.

...

weird dream.

-the kettle calls.-

Five Punctuations from an Underslept Brain

2009-06-13T07:47:00.004+08:00

randoms:

the reason i love pizza hut so much is because i always get complimentary bread sticks with my mushroom soup.. all the time. i remember one time i had bread fingers because they delivered my iced tea late, and i was a little cranky, they gave me the compliments maybe to appease me. the other time, i was ordering to a hostess my usual house fix (super panalo meal #3 bbq chick fillet), while telling her how much i love pizza hut and that i brought my colleagues to the bistro the last time i celebrated my birthday - they gave me compliments again! the last time, i was just really charming and cutesy, the bread sticks came even before my iced tea and soup.

hmmmm.. i love pizza hut. still behind don hen though in my fave list of local bistros, but then again, it's don hen.

so i have this colleague who offered to buy me a top from TOPMAN, my favorite color (mahogany, olive green, indigo, white, and egg blue - you choose) for no particular reason, in exchange for a kiss...

freaky... like, do you have life? and the most stifling catch is...

my colleague is a guy.

like how gay could that get?

...

my application for nestle seems to have gone a-rot. i feel like wanting to withdraw my actual application, coz i've waited too long, and it's not like nestle's too good a company to keep you waiting on the sidelines.

maybe i'll just withdraw...

i lost 21 pounds in two months.

i developed an addiction to bacon.

i realized how hard it is to find a girlfriend once you're outside the university.

i realized everything's hard once you're outside the university. . . hm.

i just celebrated my 22nd birthday recently and for some reason, i seem to be suffering QLC all over again. maybe i miss my friends (by friends i mean those who stimulate my gray, heart, and green matters all at the same time...). maybe i just lack sleep because i do graveyard shift. or maybe i'm just so out of the loop, and my time is allotted to understanding people who doesn't seem to have learned anything in school, that they are ignorami when you start speaking. or maybe because i feel like, in my current environs, nobody understands me at all.

rant.

and and, i also started thinking about career, how im supposed to get up the ladder when im already 22 and i haven't been regularized in a company ever. or how im going to squeeze my life in my work, like maybe falling in love, getting married, buying a house, having kids, investing for their future... i don't even know how to start saving for that! i dunno where to start. huff.

yes, i think the biggest question in my brain right now is: "how will i get started?"

-it ends with a question mark-

Birthday Belated

2009-06-01T18:03:00.005+08:00

Belated happy birthday to meeee!

for the record, I received nothing, as in ZERO, for my birthday this year. It's either nobody even noticed I'm still materialistically-inclined, or the economic crisis has impaled everyone. But that's ok, I'll buy na lang for myself.

...

I'm early for work today (oh btw, I work for Manulife now, I'll talk about it some other time). Apparently we have a townhall meeting, and we're going to present something (what it is, I still don't know). But we didn't go to college for nothing, because in those difficult days when the going got really tough, we mastered the art of cramming. We'll cram our presentation later.

...

ok gotta go for now. a lot of gimiks ahead, im happy life is revving up to life again.

...

oh and there was this stranger at the condo a while ago. I was surprised there was someone there when I arrived.

well I don't have much time. you know what happened. with kimoy, THINGS HAPPEN. haha.

-rev it up!-

Tache-Moi

2009-04-24T15:39:00.002+08:00

status: unnerved.

im reading khaled hosseini's kite runner, a story about the friendship between two Afghani boys, one destined to be a creative writer in America, the other destined to die a Hazara. im not done yet; i stopped at the chapter where Hassan, the Hazara, was killed by a gunshot at the back of the head. ... sad. he left a son named Sohrab orphaned, and Amir, the creative writer goes back to Kabul to save him from Afghanistan. it's a sad sad story, but very riveting.

i accidentally dropped a cream puff on a bowl of salted milk a while ago. realization for the day: cream puffs float on milk.

je m'ennui. ils me manque, mes amis. j'espere qu'on se rendera visite.

il n'y a pas bcp de gens qui m'entend. hay la vie que j'avais vecu me manque.

tache-moi rouge. chuis bleu.

-sleep, work later.-

Commute Sucks

2009-04-07T13:25:00.000+08:00

ha! i'm back.

im just here to vent, so don't expect anything bright from this post.

I HATE MY JOB! I need a change. UGHHHH. The commute sucks, the shift is graveyard, and my eyes are sore from the business processing. but the papers are in french though, but that doesn't suffice.

guys, i need a new job, a day job, in makati preferrably, because im tired of commuting through edsa, i feel like i could die any minute there. plus i hate walking. yes i walk... probably a mile to get to work. uf...

eek. die.

-listen to the yell of Leopold's ghost.-

Grummy Grammy

2009-02-10T13:15:00.004+08:00

NO!

They gave the grammy away to coldplat. darn. i dont really like them as much as the others... i dunno how they judged the song of the year, but i utterly believe mraz should've won. he deserves it. im yours has been around since whenever. it's been to canada, spain, china... everyone loved it. coldplay on the other is english muffin. only the brits love it. roar.

tsk tsk. my man jason is underappreciated. there will be retribution.

will wait for mraz' vendetta. make another album and grab the grammy's next year. the hell with coldplay.

i rock with chasing pavement. adele is hot. and estelle is like a moving editorial photo.

next up, oscars.

-grummy-

Channeling Nestle

2009-02-08T16:56:00.004+08:00

hello.

as we all already know, i am now working at a call center in lipa. i know people criticize me for not choosing a job that better fits my qualifications, but thanks to the recession, i don't have to explain a lot of things to people. I just say: "we are on a recession and i badly need money." that usually ends the awkward conversation about my job choice.

anyways.. one thing about working in a call center though is you can't control the schedule. sometimes you are in the usual 8-5 schedule, but most of the time, you have to render graveyard shifts because your customers are on another timezone. and because of this usual schedule changes, my asthma was triggered again.

i haven't had asthma for quite a while now. but it's back, and it's compromising my work. just recently i was rushed to the hospital because of asthma, and i got a recommendation from my doctor to either ask for a change in schedule (ie. from graveyard to the usual shift) or just let go of the call center job totally. he says it's affecting the way i breathe, and the unusual sleeping time is not helping. so because of the happenings, i was forced to reapply for some other company... this brought me to jobstreet, where i saw a post from my life-longed company: NESTLE.

the post was for supply chain corporate management traineeship. i applied for it just in case the call center job proves to be a plague for my health in the future.

MY APPLICATION ESSAY

(NOTE: this is all me, a very proud and selfish essay, so do not read if you hate selfishly proud people, hehe)

When asked the question: How would you relate your key competencies to this position? my answer is...

...

The post basically needs an individual who is willing to learn and adapt to work involving distribution and process management... I personally am schooled for these, and I am very well versed in basic economics and logistics. As an economics graduate, I understand the basic laws of demand and supply, the role of logistics in making thriving markets, and the interactions between markets and the state. I have a high propensity to learn; this job will not only put my theoretical training into application, it will also prove to me that what I learned from the books makes sense in reality.

The post needs an individual who can lead and inspire people, meet goals, and adapt to change. My main aptitude for this one is my communication skills. I have been in publications for eight years, and I know how to communicate with a plethora of people, written or otherwise. I started in the dirtiest departments (i.e. news and features) and from there, I worked my way up. In the whole duration of my involvement with the school paper, I was a news writer, a features writer, a development communicator, a development communications editor, a features editor, and finally a managing editor. I know the tedious job of a pool writer, and the equally demanding job of a managing editor. Along the way I met and dealt with different people, and made things work between them. Until now, the organs I was involved before continue to be official publications in my respective schools.

Finally, I personally want to work for Nestle because it embodies my philosophy about work. I strongly believe in wellness as a factor in doing well in work, life, and the balance in between. I value health and proper diet, and up to now, I haven't found a job that is attuned to these values. I checked out Nestle's online website, and the idea of working for a company that promotes wellness in their products just makes me want to know more about Nestle. I am now a strong supporter of Nestle's products (especially the milk line - Bear Brand and Nido, and the fiber drink Nesvita) because I know these products are born out of the conscious effort to bring wellness to its consumers.

I hope my qualifications fit the needs of this job. I am very willing to learn, adapt, and embody. I communicate well, am knowledgeable in business economics, and I value wellness more than what's deemed usual. Please consider my application for this one, I won't let you down.

-Keneth Tolentino UP DILIMAN BS ECONOMICS
...

yun oh...

anyways, if i get terminated from my call center job, i hope nestle employs me... it's hard to be jobless during these times.

-need better job-

Kingmax L-Series

2008-11-14T14:31:00.003+08:00

Daing, Kanye West's "Love Lockdown?" is love. The beat is magic! I dont really like the guy, I think his ivy education has fabricated him into an aloof singing gremlin, but the beat...! And im not really a fan of techno music, but this one rocks!

And maybe the video added in, with all its sexual undertones... Hehe.

Anyways, I bought the cutest travel drive a mere three hundred pesos could afford...

Meet Kingmax L-Series 1Gb Portable Drive! It's so thin you could fit it in your wallet. it doesn't make a bulk and its very robust. Well the manufacturers intended it to be really minimalist so its just the chip embedded on a blue plastic spoonette. No protective sheath whatsoever... So it's really space-saving.

Actually it comes with this cute blue alien looking silicone protector, which reminds me of... me...

So its not really, that, wallet-fitting anymore with the protector.. eh well...

Anyways, i suggest you guys buy it if you have the minimalist Japanese chromosome in you. I know i have.

-Kingmax petit-

Bluish-White Fir

2008-11-13T14:16:00.005+08:00

The clouds are the color of faded slate, but the chilly winds make this morning a piece of heaven. Climates like this remind me of that the tinky and clinky days of Christmas are drawing near.

Again i start missing our bluish white fir-type Christmas tree. It used to be six feet tall, its leaves are a multitude of needle-shaped filaments the color of alabaster tainted with blue acid. The main shaft was white, and its roots were so small, the lowest branches could cover them. From bottom, we would cover the floor with a a reindeer-designed knitted frill to carpet the dozens of gifts we would lay on the floor. Then we would hang blue and silver orbs on the branches, biggest on the bottom, smallest at the top. Along the length of the tree we would drape flourished laces and Santa Claus garlands dotted with glazed snow flakes. To brighten things up, we would embed blue rice lights behind the Christmas canopies. And to top everything off, a holiday seraphim draped in blue silk and celestas overlords the highest branch.

Ah, and everything else on our living room would be decorated with deep green garlands, plumped up with golden reindeer, red poinsettias, and blue orbs. Bright lights enlace brown branches, and by noche buena, everything is lit up.

The room will light up with the usual Christmas colors, but all eyes would be drawn at the bluish-white specter on the corner of the room. The fir tree's branches seem to spread out with frozen icicles highlighted blue. It's like a big Christmas crystal aglow with the cool blue breeze of the holidays.

Ah Christmas; it's my favorite time of the year.

-Joyeux Noel en avance-

Aizel, CPA

2008-10-21T15:03:00.003+08:00

Aizel passed the CPA board exam! Wooot! Congratulations goldfish, i knew you had it in you.

-shimishimie-

Zero Hour

2008-10-20T12:16:00.004+08:00

i was supposed to name this entry 'The Fall of Bibi," (you'll see why later) but i remembered im using two word titles until february of next year... anyways...

i woke up to a different air today. it's like the end of an era... officially.

Yesternight, while i was lounging at my favorite hangout (my bed), i busied myself with super mario brothers 3 on my laptop's nes emulator. i felt an itch on my backside, so i stretched out to reach it, but my foot got caught somewhere on the sheets and i accidentally leaned over my innocent laptop. i just heard a shy crack and the crystalline sound of shearing glass, and when i looked over, the once 15 inches monitor of my laptop is now a rhomboid on the upper left, the lower right was black with matrical lines. in short, i cracked my laptop's lcd, and now, about 40% of the monitor graphic is gone.

damn. just when i was gearing to watching my latest dvd series.

so the point of recounting my mishap, i think... im losing the things that defined me in college so i can start back again from scratch... back to zero.... i have recounted before that i lost my favorite things, like my ipod, my favorite tee, the rest of my gadgets.... huff, it's like im being stripped barenaked.

so i had a little moment saying goodbye to my laptop (it was dusk and the evening sky was abnormally sadly purple yesterday.) i'm not saying i cried (no im more manly than that, haha!) but it bummed me remembering how important my laptop used to be.

anyways that was yesterday, and this morning, when i woke up, i saw myself in the mirror in some other perspective. i looked at me looking back, no white earphones hanging from my ears, no catchy lanyards suspended from my neck, no silver studs, no fancy play toys at my fingers, donning one of my oldest shorts and a washed-out tank-top... i was looking at myself sans my usual regalia... and it was a bit intriguing, because there was something really organic about it...

maybe it was destined by fate... maybe i really have to start from scratch, shed all my protective coverings and start creating confidence in myself without the help of comfort things. it's like, for me, the most official end of a passing era. and im excited for tomorrow.

i miss bibi, my laptop, she has been so accomodating... but maybe its time to move on... ;p

-zero hour-

Growing In

2008-09-15T23:05:00.003+08:00

"i have new priorities..."

all of a sudden, a recent chat with a very close friend flashed through my mind. "i have new priorities," said she, as i blabbered about the hardships that is adulthood. in my half matured mind i was in denial - im young, i need guidance, i cant pay my own rent, i cant make my own decisions just yet... im not halfway close from being an adult.

my resume is premature, my clothes are too preppy for the corporate world, and my face just doesnt have enough stubble.

im young for my age.

but then i realized, "i have new priorities" is actually like a skip. you stumble upon it on the road and then it teleports you to a new place. a harsher place. a more.. should i say, boring place. it's like being in a standoff.. with what, i dont really have any idea.

"i have new priorities" is like a rite of passage. if you pass through it, you wont need to age slowly. you just become an adult, see it's like detour. adolescence, "i have new priorities," then adult. just like that.

you just wait for the rest to grow in.

how wicked is the world and aging?

no, i dont mean it the cool way.

-wear pink and paint the town red.-

L'appelle Chanceuse

2008-09-12T16:23:00.005+08:00

je m'ennui! il fait froid dehors et il n'y a pas d'electricite.. je suffries.

ooohh, l'ambassade du canada m'a appelle! quelle chance. j'espere qu'ils m'employeraient.

-pardon mon francais.. ;p-

Sasori Hayabusa

2008-09-10T22:25:00.005+08:00

disclaimer: pure nothingness lies ahead. do not read. it will blank your mind out. or annoy you at least...

that is the most japanese name i'd ever hear. same thing as the word chouette the most french word id ever utter.

ive really got nothing to say... i lost my soul when i left college.

nothingness starts here.. i'll try to speak in the most nordic gibberish so no one comprehends a phrase i'd scribe here.

so lately ive been really preoccupied by the keneth-the-businessman life that id practically abandoned mocha syrup, wrath, and folio. ive got no secrets to blend in mocha syrup because ive been an open book lately. nothing to rant about in wrath either, since i havent been acutely angry for a long time now (not that im in a happy place, just not angry...). and nothing to write at folio because i haven't been really creative after college.

jaded by the fact that im currently unemployed but im still working, to tender my resignation.. and not one company called me up for an update, that is my temperament for the moment.

an officemate asks me out on a date and i haven't budged yet. the hassles of having no money.. it subtracts from my masculinity...

a roommie is always a pain in the ass. take it from the expert.

a yearbook has its way of delaying its self printing... which is frustrating.

if i still dont get any call from anyone by november, im leaving the country. wish me luck.

-university of california at sta. barbara, here i come...-

Point Murky

2008-09-04T15:36:00.004+08:00

Oh my G. so this is how it feels. being unemployed is like trudging a cave without flashlight.

so my four-months stint at megaworld has come to an end (well not yet, technically, as i still have to tender my resignation.). i've learned a lot about the property and real estate industry, and ive also met some really great people (not!). but to resign is a must; i dont want to deal w/irate clients anymore. it makes me lose my respect to my fellow filipinos (pinoy mouths can stink like the smokey mountains due to trash talking.)

besides, i dont want this culture instilled in me, and i dont want to be trained more for something im not good at in the first place. once a collector, always a collector... im not a collector...

so good riddance.

hmmm, i need a life, really. let's see where my resume takes me...

-flyf-

Chuis Fini

2008-08-20T12:31:00.003+08:00

hi blog, three-month long hiatus, im not my normal self.

j'ai quelqu'une qui m'en fiche... doi.

-rainy day...-

Lune Bleue

2008-05-04T15:24:00.003+08:00

Hey! Wait a minute... Guess who's back??

So okay, i dont even remember the last time i logged on to this site, probably one of those days when im still in college awaiting a life-longed graduation day. well a lot has changed now, im bigger (fatter), i've graduated in the dean's list, and im already working as an account specialist for megaworld! welcoommeto the famuhlyyy... lala.

uhm, so since we're on the topic, let me brief you of the things im doing lately.. well... ive been busy getting trained for my job,which basically involves the collection of amortizations for Megaworld's residential units, and everything else involved in the process. now, eventhough i was lucky to get a job immediately after grad, im also apprehensive of what im doing now because 1) i didnt take any business subject in college so everything is a crash course, 2) my french competency is not being utilized under the circumstance, and 3) THE FREAKIN COMPENSATION IS FREAKIN FUCKIN LOWWWW (LOOWWLOOOW LOOOW)! i'm working 6 days a week, and there are no benefits whatsoever, except for a thirteenth month pay.. oof.

hmmm...

hay bahala na si batman. ganyan daw talaga sa simula. my bosses keep telling me that the salary would eventually grow so i dont need to fret. sana nga.

so anyways, aside from the changes in me, my environment has also changed. i now live in makati with my cousins, and im gonna do so until i find myself a unit to crash. i tried living with my other cousin who lives in greenhills, he has this really nice unit that's up and down, but inside a condo... yeah. really posh. but it's too faraway, and i have to ride the mrt, which is a horrendous nightmare, (im never gonna ride mrt ever again..).

lipa has changed too, because the sabang bridge is being reconstructed. so a very major route to the city proper has been cutoff, jamming all transportation routes, causing traffic in basically everywhere. the economy of lipa city now hang by a thread, as the only thoroughfare leading to the marketplace is cutoff. awww. it's a nice city pa naman. back to zero ulet.

i have new friends too... well actually office mates. and i deem it very pathetic because the only friends i can make now are the ones sitting beside me in a very boring workplace. i mean, i dont even have time to go to the mall, better yet party at night and go to bars like i used to in college. so now i realize how people actually age... you know, how they age physically, like their skin sag, or their hair dries up, and everything else dries up like your vitality and libido.. hay. its a sad sad situation... tsk tsk.

but. there is another way to age better, and that is to kick ass today so you get promoted early, so get a better place in the office, and more time to spare. that's what im tryin to do right now. the faster i get promoted, the better. good luck me.

ayt that it for the moment. will post again when i can. see y'all!

-busy and stressed and itching a bit-

Boredom 2008

2008-03-25T18:59:00.003+08:00

the boring days just kept coming. i thought 2006 was the most boring year ever. but no, it's still boring today...

i've practically junked myself with the OC since a preset chillin session is almost about to be cancelled. i can sense it. i suddenly fell out of the mood actually.

pfffffffffffffffffffffffffffff...

to give you a clearer picture, my day has been an entire bummer. first i ate two big breakfast which paralyzed my lower body. since i cant move much, i decided to be a couch potato. i popped the OC season 2 on bibi, engaged my headphones, and watched, for the most part of the day, while my torrent client downloads the sequel to step up, the high-voltage movie. pfffffffffff..

my balls are turning to gall stones. i need activity...

huff.

-mome.n..t...u.....m.....-

French Classmates

2008-03-24T21:22:00.003+08:00

wow. who would've thought? i'll remember this day for the rest of my lucid life. ;p

today, march 24th, i had my last and final exam in UP as a college student!! whooohooo! i wont have to look forward to dreading sem-ends, and there are no more photocopies to study. wow. it's overwhelming.

well let me give you a piece of what my final exam was. it was a debate in french for my conversational french class, and i was elected best orator!! yiheaaH! haha! (i know right, im not even coherent when i speak sometimes), but hey!

and finally im free from college! phew. it's actually kind of humbling... in some parts of it... ;p

afterwards me and my classmates went to mcdo to eat, but later on it became a busting session where secrets were revealed and people were lambasted. haha! oh these people.

im really gonna miss them. these past few semesters, i spent more time with them than with my econ batchmates. everyday, i saw the same faces, sat with the same seatmates, talked in the same broken french as theirs... awww. these people.

i'll miss 'em. to bits...

-joanajezerjapkrismaaaronemilleronjoicesarahlenneilmakatbrecciaangelakarlafroilenereenalorenadoryjeannelouischristinegladyschezka-

Couching AI

2008-02-23T07:21:00.002+08:00

Dup!

I’ve just been junking myself with American Idol until now.. my eyes are tired, my ears are tired, but I gotta give kudos to the judges coz they’ve been listening to a whole bunch since whenever, and I bet they eardrums tired sumthin, but they’re still there.. ‘mazing..

Anyways, as a Filipino, I normally love listening to people sing. It kind of stirs a music that’s inside, always inside; it’s intrinsic to a Filipino, loving to sing and loving to listen to it. So for the past few days ive kept my trusty laptop Bibi on, downloading the latest episodes of AI (there’s supposed to be a PI but it hasn’t come out yet.. or well how was I to know, I never watched tv since PBB completely went down last year.). it’s been fun.

The pool this season is the most talented so far; they’re no more the tone-deaf lunatics with crazy crazy antics… im glad talented people are finally coming out of their shells.

Anyways, this has got to be it, if I continue blogging about AI id be completely non-patriotic so… well I just want to commend good songers thatsall.

…

I finally got my mri results… not so bad, I just have reversed cervical lordosis, which I so get. I should go to medschool.

…

I was rummaging through my things a while ago and I stumbled upon my old planner-turned-collage-book. And there were entries, and ticket stubs, and receipts, and pictures! Of me and some person… awww, the romantic old days. I wish ive someone here to cuddle…

I miss cuddling.

I mean.. the real thing… the one with some love injected in it.

….

Awww… i need some lovin.

Gotta watch AI!

And gotta shave my stubble, it’s prickly…

-;p-

Klinngy Clique

2008-02-10T00:18:00.000+08:00

aww.... my klinngy friends.

hindi kumpleto ang araw pag wala kayo. ;p klinngy!!! haha.

uy teka, ako una, ako leader yehey!!

-klinngy-

Red Paint

2008-02-08T15:06:00.001+08:00

croak croak croak..

im doing myself silly. in my attempt to drown out a blue that's eating me alive. im sorry if im dragging people around me down for being SINGLE and SINGLE YET... im frustrating...

only 6 days remain, and the town will be painted red again. if you're taken, stuffed cupids and blown-up hearts look cute, but if you're like me, they only remind you of how alone you will be when saint valentine's embraces the city. couples will be roaming everywhere... and you just look on.

huhu.

it's not like im gonna be jaded the rest of the day... i have class (french class to be specific, the class where we study the very romantic and lusciously luxurious language of... ak..) and in the afternoon, me and my other single friends have arranged a group date, just to ward off some loneliness...

but what will i do for the rest of the day?? i have more than eight hours free... and i don't want to wallow...

gale says she's gonna sleep the blues off..

i obviously can't do that (i can't sleep properly even if i wanted to. damn)

i wish i could just be my other friend ayen who is basically incapable of loving. i bet she's not a degree daunted by the coming valentine's.

tsk.

im not an ice king.. i have crushes, im even almost in love with one of them, but she's simply so out of my league. and then the other one's taken.. so...

this is so not me speaking.

im not usually like this.

errr... i need fresh air.

-bleu fonce-

Happy Nights

2008-02-06T16:21:00.000+08:00

tues - mcdonald's dinner with chem friends; met chenna and rachel, rachel lost her keys, sleepover

wed - met ger-man, kuto flat, sleepover again

thurs - trinoma, pusoy dos sa choleng area, putol susi, sleepover again??

fri - sm kfc dinner, national treasure

tues - ...

wed - ...

thurs - starbucks, hang-out at je'el's crib

fri - inom

sat - clingy morning

mon - jabi dinner, pinky night

tues - trinoma, hang-out at je'el's crib

wed - starbucks tambay

thurs - cloverfield (olats na movie, parang prequel ng i am legend..) sleepover at je'el's place

fri - bum, flaming wings dinner, met chef and andy, seattle's, gale super sabog, hang-out at je'el's

mon - jabi dinner, dencio's capitol hills with chenna and gale, kuto bug out again

tues - kada praning tago kay chi..

Happy Hour

2008-01-18T08:21:00.000+08:00

whooohooo!! the long wait is over!

spiky's gonna need some exercise... *wink*

-happy hour-

Hello 2008

2008-01-06T17:10:00.000+08:00

hello 2008!

this year will mark the end of an era for me, since im gonna graduate (hopefully) from college, finally ending my 16 year tenure as student. not that im bored with it, it's just that im getting tired of being supported by my mum who equates my school needs with groans and moans in equal amounts. once i get a job and start working, id get my own salary and i can buy everything i want, from a fully portside closet to nintendo wii, to the luxuries of techiness and beyond. you see, im materialistically deprived. ;p

...

it has been three days since i went to pgh for my checkup, and the only good thing i got from it is that i now know the condition of my pinky finger.. it's actually called a trigger finger, an orthopedic condition wherein the ligament that envelopes the tunnels of the fingers hardens due to overuse. this creates a locking or snapping sensation. the head doctor of pgh's ortho department told me i could get a trigger finger release session this tuesday, so i can finally get rid of this nuisance. as for my other ailments, im still on the process of getting to know which doctor we are supposed to go to next.

geezers begeezes, pgh is really a melting pot of diseases. everywhere is just flooded with people with bizarre diseases, it will make your stomach lurch... but im not discriminating. it's just that, if you do have money for medical treatments, try out other hospitals instead of pgh; the hospital has too many cases to attend to, and the whole checkup process can be very daunting. it's better to lend your slot to someone who is less fortunate.

...

im gonna open my spanish book to pagina ochenta y uno right at this moment, let's see if i get dazed.

...

ooh, i did! damn.

...

ok that's it for now, i gotta do this collage we are putting up on the yearbook, so i need to go multiply-site-hopping to klepto some pictures.. see yall!

-rubinelli-

Clenching Disorder

2007-12-18T19:38:00.000+08:00

please please please give me a good night sleep.

we went to the doctor some days ago. she diagnosed me with some neurological disorder, and she referred me to a doctor in pgh. it's kind of scary but it's nothing, just some jitters in my peripheral nervous system. that's the reason why i kept waking up in the middle of the night, my right hand clenched like stone. my nerves are not functioning properly. huff.

anyways, doctor is working me up for the big PGH finale. currently im taking vitamin b complex to nourish my nerves daw. alongside that, i drink a liquefied multivitamin supplement, which not only tastes good, it invigorates my muscles and makes me feel light. it's kind of expensive though, as i have to take it one sachet per day. (geezers, i sound like a 50 year old lolo battling senile disorders..)

hmmm, i just hope i'd feel better once i get checked up in pgh.

..

we went to the baby shower of little-cuteypie-baby rhian. she was christened at san agustin, and the reception was at dad's malate. yuumm!! dami food! spiced clams and scallops, sinigang, lechong chicken at pork, puchero, sweet and sour fish fillet, teka and cali maki, naruto, salmon fillets, yum yum yum. we also had flans, cream puffs, halo halo!! hello food heaven..

as a souvenir, we got little stuffed penguins in pronounced holiday costumes. hehe, cute. but i can't find my penguin though.. must have misplaced him somewhere. bibi?? bibi penguin??? yoohoo, where are you??!

-i think i lost bibi..-

Chimie Bonne

2007-12-13T16:03:00.000+08:00

tsk tsk. j'ai mal passé mon exam espagnole. je n'avais pas etudié bien; j'ai des leçons a mon cahier des notes et je l'ai vu quelque part, mais ça ne suffit pas. et audourd'hui, il fait tres chaud. à cause du climat, j'ai fait mon exam tres mal. tsk tsk. alors je crois que j'aurai une note mauvaise.

hayhay.

à lundi, on n'aura pas notre classe en français 40 parce que ma professeur sera tombé malade, haha. mais vraiment c'est quoi elle nous a dit. et pour moi, c'est bien parce que je suis déjà en mode-du-vacance! hmm.

...

j'ai rentré chez moi à batangas pour savoir les resultats de mon exam-du-sang. alors il a été bon car la chimie de mon sang est bonne. mes <> sont équilibré, mais la medecin qui m'a assisté m'a dit aussi que la raison pour laquelle mon bras ne fonctionne pas bien est inconnue. alors elle m'a dit que j'ai besoin d'aller a PGH pour abborder un neurologiste qu'elle connait, quelqu'un qui va entendre mieux mon cas.

hmmm, peut-être il sera l'un qui pourra m'aider..

-en attendant-

Sem Point-Nul

2007-12-09T22:50:00.000+08:00

im boooored.

...

i was surfing youporn just now and i found a video of a livestream from the big brother house of germany (i think). there were two people, a guy and a girl... and they were fucking! right then and there, under the cameras! in a hot steamy jacuzzi! haha. i wonder how they could muster enough libido to do it under big brother's nose and the whole nation watching. (actually now, the whole world is watching... hehe) man, these germans.

...

im really really bored. im thinking of enrolling myself in a gym, to get my muscles working instead of just bumming around. but i dont have the momentum yet. maybe when the holidays come. i also tried searching for voluntary work, but i figured, im not really that much of an altruistic missionary, so no volunteers work for me.

ergh, i just want something to do, just something... anything... please gimme something to do.

im boooooooored.

-i should have enrolled in more subjects-

Patapon Ako

2007-12-05T22:45:00.000+08:00

booooored.

ang patapon ko na. and i feel like im getting dumber and dumber by the second. wala na kasi ako inaaral na subject that involves calculations and shit. tut tut tut.

san kaya ako makakahanap ng fubu?

...

im drafting designs for another apparel design contest at school. im getting the hang of doing photomanips, i feel like my future is getting artsier and fartsier, which is good for me, as it increases my chances of getting a job in the future (what, advert? marketing? market knowledge? bring it on. ;p).

...

pero as of the moment, tinatamad na talaga ako pumasok. i dont see my friends that often because we have very lax schedules kaya hassle pa pumunta sa school and make tambay. haay.

...

aun lang naman. i will do my span tareas na. buenas noches.

-i think therefore i fart-

UP Pailaw

2007-12-03T21:16:00.000+08:00

sleepy.

if we are to count, my fingers wouldn't suffice the many things i failed to do these past three and a half years in UP. since im spending my last semester, i thought maybe it's time to try out new things, experience what UP life was always meant to be. well tonight, i joined some person's kada to watch a yuletide event called the pailaw. it's a closed-roads affair that concerns the lighting of the facade hall and the whole length of the university avenue. cool.

well, we failed to watch the main spectacle (the lighting itself) pero we caught up with the culminating activity at the university theater. dance troupes recognized by the university performed. there was the up street dance, up pep squad, up filipiniana, etc etc. fun.

hmm. this event is just one of the many things that i could experience before i leave UP. next on my list is the grand oblation run and the lantern parade. ive experienced them before but this time i want to do something unique about it. hmmmm. i dunno. maybe i'll help out in the creation of econ's entry - an impressionism inspired float adorned with giant-sized gifts, candy canes, tinsel, and garlands in it. ooooh.

-the yuletide season starts now-

Bagsakan Blues

2007-11-27T20:42:00.000+08:00

hayy. the stress, it's like a heavy backpack which outweighs you twice.

i went home late today because we had to wait for the bagsakan of the gradpics. it was infuriating because the printer responsible for our pictures wasn't corresponding accordingly. at 12 noon today, we should have received all of the packages, but come 4 o'clock, we were still as empty-handed as yesterday (the day when everything will be delivered according to a signed contract). in the end, hindi pa rin pala madedeliver today yung lahat ng pictures, tomorrow pa. so sayang lang oras ng paghihintay.. the opportunity cost is off the ceiling..

kaka-annoy. parang may kausap na isda, walang nagreregister.

hmmm..

un lang naman. kakastress. buti ayen is treating us for her twentieth birthday on thursday. unwind, unwind, unwind. i can't wait!

-advanced happy birthday ayen!! cuervo cuervo!!-

Thesis Lullaby

2007-11-20T00:40:00.001+08:00

i woke up again, great.

there are days when i wake up of from some dreamy stupor feeling hot and cranky inside. i's usually hit the comfort room, take a shower, and eat something while listening to my favorite lullabies (i.e. coffee and cigarettes, war of hearts and minds...). today is an exception though.. instead of doing my usual insomnia-killing routine, i turn-on my laptop, fix coffee, and read internet abstracts for my undergraduate thesis... on stock market volatility and the day-of-the-week effect.

hehe. nerd.

(but i should force myself to do this. tomorrow is thesis-mania day with my thesis partner fed, so id better be prepared... kelangan bibo.. ;p)

hmmm... *i will follow you into the dark - death cab*

im so proud, i got perfecto in my quiz today in spanish. yehey. you see im taking spanish too, alogside french (to improve my chances of getting a job after grad, ;p). my profe is a bit of a bore though, and she's annoying at times, especially when she starts recounting her endless tales of povedan life. bllllllll... but despite the cumbersome professor, i like the class kasi masaya naman ung mga tao..

tick tock.

bakit feeling ko hindi ako magkaka-asawa...? hay.

ayun lang naman. cge im going back to my thesis na...

-vovolavolavolatilivolatilivolatility-

Bread Talk

2007-11-13T19:01:00.002+08:00

say hello to my dinner! kfc's go-go sandwich and BreadTalk's chocolate croissant and butterdy napalm-looking thingy.. yum~!

BreadTalk, a chain of commercially-oriented "bakeries," captured a huge market so easily because of its boulangerie-type products. everything you find amid the rich and colorful aromas whets your appetite. they're all so delicious: in fondue dip, in sugar frosting, or simply in butter. others are experimental, with cheese and chocolate existing in one wheat bread. which is still good, and everything is big and golden brown... yum yum yum yum yum!

...

my mobile phone is facing it's sunset days. this morning i was waiting for my alarm to ring but it didnt (yes, i was awake before it did, because i had doubts if it would ever alarm by itself...) when i unlocked the keypad, the screen said: "please insert sim card." in my mind i was going "oh shit" cause that was normally how phones tell you that they're gonna die any time soon. so in panic, i immediately grabbed my pc suite connector and backed-up all my files inside the phone: contacts, messages, system tools, etc. etc. i salvaged some photos which i forgot to include in my multiply albums, but oh well... geezers, if my phone really dies the world would crumble down (slightly) because i use my phone a lot.

some of my salvaged photos. this one was supposedly-candid-shot in taal vista.

these two are some of my pacute set of photos shot the first of november, when i was totally bored out by the hundreds of tombstones dotting the floral gardens cemetery in lipa.

hmmm. poor phone. it had been a very trusty one.

but... if it does die, i would have the reason to tell my mum to buy me the new motorazr2 v8 phone by motorola... oooh.... it's very sleek and everything is glass and it's front screen has touch-pad capabilities. and it's a clam phone so it's more sophisticated and better looking. hmmm..

oh well. whatever my phone does to itself has benefits... just like everything...

-yum the bread bought in chocolate and butter inside-

Trinoma Trip

2007-11-08T17:28:00.000+08:00

the reg period at UP can be a bit boring. as a member of my organization's registration team, i see the students of econ simply come and go. it's all routine. i get their form5's, countersign their names on the master list, collect 24 pesos for the school paper fund, stamp their form5's with the sidhi seal, and pass their form5's to the council members who will finish the process with their counterpart set of protocols. very very routine. i could do it in my sleep. haha. doing this kind of process the whole day makes you go awry due to boredom. so me and my friends decided to take the night off, so we could unwind.

high school friends and me went to trinoma for some shawarma lovin. hihi.

after trinoma, we went to the ice cream store to buy really cheap but good cupped ice cream. then off to len's crib to watch a movie (lady in the water, which is almost scary but not quite). after that we all got hungry and went to mcdo katipunan which is thankfully open 24 hours. while eating our french fries and chicken fillets, we launched into some intimate conversations, where we made sense of each others' ideals and disposition towards things 20 year-old people should know. it was great. i love my high school classmates because they are all so understanding.

next time we'll play the "never-have-i-ever" game para finally we can update ourselves with each others' goings-on. masaya un... i cant wait.

-intimate conversations-

Mile High

2007-11-08T16:55:00.000+08:00

weee!

to "celebrate" the day of the souls, my family went to tagaytay to visit the famous pink sisters' church. my mum and titas were all excited by their "pilgrimage", but i was more interested on the nice weather, good food, and famous coffee. hehe. we went to carlo's pizzeria, where delicious parmesan-topped seafood pasta and meaty thin-crust pizzas are served. yum! the views at mile high is astonishing; you can see the mouth of the taal volcano from the restaurant terrace.

we went to the famous taal vista hotel, and man, the coffee is terrific. i got a cafe mocca fix which sounds pretty normal, except it has raspberry purree and liquor at the bottom, and rich cream and bailey's on top. delicious! the taste and aroma just fills you in. i wanna go back.

thanks ate jenny for the photos!

-tagaytay lovin'-

Mall-Hopping Friends

2007-11-08T16:29:00.000+08:00

the sembreak is drawing to an end. like the usual sembreaks, i come to Quezon City 2 days early for the registration to avoid the inevitable traffic.

and like the usual sembreaks, i spent a day of it goofing around with my bestest buddies aizel and danazart. fun! first darryl treated us in tokyo tokyo since it was his birthday, then we did some mall-hopping, window-shopping, and a lot of eating. it was so fun!

while waiting for our muffins to arrive, darryl is trying to reconstruct a collapsible cube (which is excruciatingly mentally challenging... hehe ;p).

so nice to have them around. i can goof around whenever and however i want. they dont seem to mind if im the silliest person in their midst. or maybe they just plainly dont notice. ;p

-mcdo/robplacelipa/sm/mcdo-

Boring Brunch

2007-10-30T09:19:00.001+08:00

i've just finished writing my write-up in the wittiest way i could write it. i want people reading the yearbook to make a good impression of me... ;p

tick tock.

maybe i should go back to batangas earlier than expected - boredom is materializing and the air stinks... and my gimik-partners are not making any contact so i'd better seek them out in batangas. one of my best friends recently acquired a new love life. good for her. me, im stuck with my old self and my old (but loving nevertheless) laptop. hay when will i get a love life?

it's a beautiful day today. good day for traveling. if i leave now, what time will i arrive in lipa city?

-welcome to the life of the bored-

Flabby Racist

2007-10-28T21:41:00.001+08:00

please... for the last time, don't mistake me for korean. i know sometimes it's supposed to be a compliment (considering colonial mentality prices high on filipino society) but there comes a point when mistaking someone for another race simply signifies ignorance of hybrid culture plus ignorance to recognize a compatriot...

i was in shakey's a while ago buying dinner when a big fat lady approached me and told me "hello??" (with arms flailing...) "could you please move to somewhere else coz we need this table..." apparently she brought her whole family of fat-flabs and she wants me to give them space. well at first i was more than happy to move since i didnt want their family day be destroyed, but the fat girl whispered under her nose "dapat sinesegrate ang mga resto dito eh, ung mga koreano sa labas na lang..."

wow. the nerve.

it was obvious that she was a bit of a patriotic slab, but the racism??? in defense to the koreans, they rank higher in terms of political correctness compared to americans or the europeans even to us! and there's nothing really much to hate about them. but what bugs me more is that she didn't even care if i was just a korean looking pinoy half-breed or whatever, she just blurted out, not knowing that i am more tagalog than she is...

i didn't have the courage to bite back, coz she has her army of big flabby teletubbies in tow, so i just left the restaurant after i got my to-go pack.

sometimes filipinos tend to cross the line. and they hurt their fellow filipinos in doing so.

...

i was in multiply a while ago, and i read a post from one of my best buddies in town. it says: "confessions of a metrosexual" and it's about him going out to the public proclaiming that he's a metrosexual. he even recounts a number of things that makes him one. it says there he has like 2 kikoy kits full with stuff i don't even know exists... he has lip balm, tongue cleaners, body lotions, lip gloss, etc. he has an arsenal of moisturizers, from facials to hand to body moisturizers.. man. it's crazy.

this is all due to powerful media. what with david beckham and marcus schenkenberg and brad pitt... hay. soon there'll be a legion of metrosexuals and all woman vanity will be reduced to dust.

but im not judging. it's just that i can't find the way to appreciate uber-vanity just yet.

-bored-

Japanese Language

2007-10-21T15:26:00.000+08:00

hello!

to ward off boredom i started downloading the famous (well at least for the kids) animation series Naruto. it's fun! it's no longer the usual japanese cartoon series because it has a nicely weaved storyline and the animation is cutting-edge. they use a lot of saturations now, and i noticed the lines and constrasts are more defined.. anyways.

so the series is subtitled in english, but i found it hard to shut off my hearing mechanism to just focus on the english subtitles. and then i have to watch the cartoon attentively, in case i miss a visual glitch that turns they story around (it happens often). therefore after every episode, i congratulate myself for successfully managing a multi-task endeavor. ;p

anyways, my polyglotic self is playing on me again today... i find the japanese spoken language a bit interesting. sometimes it's screechy, but most of the time it's candid and ponderous... i want to sort of... learn it. OH! okay here we go again.

did you know that i started learning the french language because i heard two people conversing in french and i had a moment's time talking to myself, describing how it sounded like? i remember, i told myself it was so romantic, that every phrase reminds me of the cream puff that a high school classmate was selling. and it flows, and flows, and it's smoky at its best, with a hint of luxury and delicateness... hmmmmmm.. c'est une langue tres belle.

iniwiz, this time the japanese language intrigues me because it's a bit "robust" compared to the french language. i thought maybe learning about the language would give me an idea how... the japanese people eventually rose the economic ladder. ? i know it's pretty far-fetched, but, well let me explain this: i have a notion that the success of nations are partly determined by their culture, including the language they speak. the japanese have been very japanese all these times. they even closed the nation from international trade once. they were poor then, but when they came out of their invisible prison, they never looked back. they're now at the top, intact and patriotic and all. now compare te japanese case to our case. we filipinos are so disintegrated. even our language is not as defined. the Filipino language that linguists have known from textbooks is not really the filipino that we used to day. the more prevalent language for communication nowadays is the Taglish, an amalgam of the filipino and english languages. it's very partial, and it doesn't give justice to both languages (but i didnt post this entry to reprimand the filipino people for not using the filipino language properly, i mean, even i speak taglish most of the time..)

well back to the japanese language, since i was so interested at learning more, i hurried to national bookstore which is just a hundred steps from my condo. i went there to browse the language books in the farthest corners of the building (i wonder why they had to be put there, they should be more up front, coz language is a very interesting matter..) the polyglot in me was driving, and guess what, i only looked up one book about kanji, and spent the remaining two hours looking at MANDARIN instruction materials. yes, now the chinese language. i thought i could help reading the books as long as it's not all phonetic.

and then my polyglot self suddenly died out. i realized the only reason i got far in my french studies is because it's just a language with new word spellings, and that's it. yes maybe there's a new syntax and phonology, but it is closely related to the english language, which i already know. this is also the reason why i get to understand some spanish, and even some italian and portuguese. that's also the reason why i don't know any east asian language: they are hard to learn due to the fact that i have to learn them first by letter, as they use phonetics when writing. symbols and whiffs and whahaveyous. no. i told myself. that's gonna take some time.

so no oriental languages for me in the near future.

but that's okay. i have plenty of time to learn another language or two. im just twenty.

and still have plenty of time to enjoy Naruto. but for now, i'll settle for simply immersing myself with the constant displays of candidness in their watashiwas! and sasukes! and haruko kanatas! ...

-japonais-

One Seven-Five

2007-10-18T18:05:00.000+08:00

okay so far all of my grades range between 1.75 and... 1.75, harhar, so ok im still safe, im not in danger of getting any probation again.

i was surfing the net for the top universities in the world and i came across some of the sites of the ivy league universities... made me want to apply for a scholarship so i could study there. i want to study modern languages since im doing relatively good in the field and i have an innate love for culture and humankind. ;p

oh and did you know, english is a germanic language?? yeah, it's one of the two biggest germanic languages in the modern world, alongside deutsche of course. and so this is why they call german the broken english, coz they belong to the same language family and they almost sound alike. of course im talking about english english here (not american english) and modern german.

hey i just watched pinoy big brother and it's really interesting to watch coz one of the hosts just got trapped inside the house and cannot exit, thus she becomes another housemate... fun!

although i still think pinoy big brother is too timid for contemporary and liberal minds like mine. australia's big brother is a lot more... carnal. but im not saying we should put nympho's inside the house and promote sex or sodomy whatever to philippine television. i just think the claim of the program to represent all the faces of the pinoy is an overstatement. believe me, there is an underground society thriving in our midst that remain untouched my reality tv. the mini-cultures, the life of the very high end, the existence of tribal pinoys, the marginalized sector, the fisherfolk, or the expats. yes, a bohemian society has yet to be portrayed on tv. in the meantime, the show invests on multiracials, if not model-type hot species, to hoard the ratings and gloss-over the true filipino personna.

...

i just ate sisig a while ago and i think i might have to jog again tomorrow. sisig makes my heart go jiggy. maybe i should start drinking heartvit... haha!

yes! another 1.75! im hoarding 1.75's this sem...

-a whiff of juniper in hazelnut macchiato-

Flooded Mailbox

2007-10-15T12:38:00.000+08:00

and my french-loving, rizal-lambasting sem has come to an end. the only thing i have to worry now is again, boredom, but as i dug into the flooded recesses of my cyber mailbox, i realized it wouldn't be a very monotonous sembreak after all.

let's start with the cheating anomaly that sprouted in the midst of our otherwise impeccable batch. an issue is currently circulating around about the cheating incidence during an exam for a business administration subject, coincidentally entitled "Law on Business Transactions"... would you believe that? cheating under the law? haha. but seriously, it is a very defaming, if not plainly controversial, matter as it happens in the school of economics, the center for excellence in economics in the philippines. and as i heard it, one of the cheaters is actually a candidate for a summa cum laude! how bugging is that?? does this mean she kept an impeccable gwa buy stuffing cheat sheets under her jacket while taking an exam? my, what a bummer. anyways, as for the exam, it had to be retaken to maintain consistent and un-cheated test scores.

this issue has been promoted into the internet by the enraged students (who had to retake the exam thanks to the cheaters). it's a cyber word-war out there. hate mails, appeals, and calls to whistle-blow keep coming by the minute. meanwhile, the effect on me of the whole incident is... a very crowded mailbox. what a messy messy issue that our school (and my email) had to be involved with. this has to be cleared at once, before things get dirtier and reach the disciplinary tribunal.

...

another thing thats gonna keep me busy this sembreak is the editing of the yearbook writeups. you see, as the associate editor of the graduating batch's yearbook, one of my main tasks is to put all feature write-ups into final drafts before they are layouted. since there are only two people in the very efficient editorial board who are concerned with the write-ups (me and lex, the features ed), final editing will come really hard. there are almost 120 econ students in our school, each of which will pass 2 write-ups, leaving the two of us 120 testimonials each to edit. the thing is, not even a third of the batch has submitted their write-ups yet. we're not only under pressure of time and under-capacity, deadlines are also posing a nuisance. our penalties are not working, instead they became perverse incentives; people started thinking they could afford to submit write-ups late. why? because they'd only lose Php10 a day from the pockets. and hell these people are pooping pesos from behind, if you know what im mean. tsk. ah these people.

...

third, i must also exercise my charming abilities, as i will be soliciting for three different activities this sembreak: 1) the publishing of the yearbook 2) the publishing of the school paper and 3) the raising of funds for the council. god, where will i get all the money??

...

and lastly, there's an impending planning sem for the yearbook editorial board, but there's no fixed date yet. tsk.

...

k. thats all for now. i'll just check if there are new hate mails on the batch egroup. ;p

-organizing-

One Last

2007-10-09T19:36:00.000+08:00

Whoohoo!! tapos na econ141 and french... econ121 na lang (although im still thinking if i'll take the finals..) im almost ready to enjoy my one last sembreak. wow, my very last sembreak. after this, wala na tuloy tuloy na. there's no going back! yikes.

malapit na ko mag-goodbye to school life. haaay.

-il me manquera-

Une Testimonie

2007-10-04T22:16:00.001+08:00

tres longue, le temps, il me mis en ennui. le temps de cesser de la semestre n'arrive toujours. je ne peux plus l'attendre.

mais cepandant le temps est tres longue, c'est supportable. j'ai reçu une testimonie d'un des amis les miens, est elle m'a fait meilleur. chuis heureux qu'il y ait toujours des amis qui me connaissent bien. ah, la vie...

-j'aime avoir des amis...-

Des Examens

2007-10-03T14:31:00.000+08:00

waaaaah! je deteste ce jour!

j'ai commencé le matin avec un examen oral pour français quinze. j'ai pensé qu'il s'agissait des outils pour conversation, mais non, voici ce qui s'est passé:

ma professeur m'a donné une pièce de papier ou un loi était écrit. elle m'a demandé y réflechir. c'est horrible. j'ai été horrible. si j'avais etudié comment repondre plus vite, j'aurais eu un conversation plus bonne. tsk.

et après, j'ai passé mon examen pour le science physique. c'est plus terrible! je n'ai pas etudié tous les leçons et alors je n'ai pas pu repondre bien aux questions. hay quelle dommage.

et maintenant je ne sais pas ce que je dois fait. je suis perdu blop blop.

je rendra plus tard...

-blanca-

Fait Froid

2007-10-02T23:40:00.000+08:00

hay. je ne peux pas dormir. on aura notre examen oral demain et je suppose qu'il soit bien si je dors bien. mais il n'arrive toujours.

il est tres embêtant de perdre mon parapluie. c'est le plus convenient. maintenant j'ai besoin d'achêter un autre. quelle histoire.

errrr. le climat froid ne me plait pas. il est different. maintenant c'est tres froid, ou peut-être je suis été seulement tres épuissé par l'academe. huff. je ne peux plus d'attendre le sembreak. combien jours...?

alors au revoir. je vais me brosser. peut-être le sommeil arrivera.

-à demain-

Études Multilingues

2007-09-29T10:22:00.000+08:00

English. Filipino. French. English. Filipino. French. Econ121. PI100. Francais15.

pffft...

CHALLENGE: studying three different subjects in three different languages all at the same time...

kimoy ---> stoned, dora, hungry, antsy, sabaw.

-Je ay tired-

Unfortunate Events

2007-09-25T22:02:00.000+08:00

okay. due to the very unfortunate turn of events, my free times are screwed. we have a dialogue in french, paper for econ121, report for PI, etc etc. it's barely 2 weeks before the sem breaks, and im stuffed!

...

i hate french. the first time i didn't do my assignment, it was the first time my teacher collected them. tsk, it's so unfair!!

i'm gonna make sure i get an uno in my exams. i swear.

-bitter-

Booty Hunter

2007-09-23T22:44:00.001+08:00

Wow. Ninya is simply the easiest person to write a write-up to. i finished her write-up in less than five minutes! well - you know that says a lot about knowing a person through and through.

i am also done writing tin's write-up although im giving it an incubation period. tomorrow i'll read it again, see if i wrote hard-reads on it... i want it to be simple but profound.

phew. now i better start my self write-up. man. why is it so hard to tell something about myself. hahaha! if only you'd know... i can go on and on writing a self-testimonial whose paragraphs all start with the pronoun "I."

...

a friend's boyfriend lent me an installer of warcraft III, but it wouldn't work. apparently, my uber-advanced cdrom cannot read the primitive codes of the installer. grreat. now i have to find other means to entertain myself. tsk. let's see... ah, you-porn! *click click*

...

awww, i dont want friends to end! (well it already did in the real world, so stop being a whimpy, sucker!). i'm done watching season 8, and then it's season 9, and season 10, and then it's finished! awww. it will be hard to say goodbye.

...

im frenh-ing, porn-ing, and snack-ing right now, gotta go.

-multi-task!-

Azta Treatment

2007-09-20T21:35:00.000+08:00

hey check this out. i went to azta to get a haircut and to use this free protein treatment coupon i got from one of my friends. well well, after sitting for more than 30 minutes in front of myself in a place where everything is in slow motion, my hair didn't get any... uhh... any different! not soft, not smooth, not taut... not nothing. i dont even know what it's supposed to be like after having azta's protein treatment.

which is just to say, getting the treatment in azta will only cost you 650 bucks (850 if you've got long hair) without any noticeable benefit.

the only thing that's different in my hair now is that it's shorter... from my haircut. hay.

buti na lang the milk tea was sinfully sweeter than what's legal. and an FHM mag was just arm's reach.

...

hoof. tamad na tamad na ko pumasok. if i can only ask mel or kat to forge my signature all the time for PI, i would cut all the remaining sessions because PI is not value-adding in any way. nahihiya lang ako magpaforge nang magpaforge eh. tsk.

the only thing that gets me going is my french 15 class. and that's only because in my mind im always thinkin, "just one more huddle and it's french-fluency for me..." im getting conversational french subjects next sem.

...

tomorrow i exam for P&G with anj, eunice, michael, and prolly the rest of my class who are all econ people. i hope i pass coz that way id stop feeling like im a dumb person who UP accidentally admitted because my UPG grade resembled 2.25 instead of 2.75... bwlehrlsf.

and i hope i dont have clogged nose this time.

...

finished writing my write-ups for ninya and tin. phew. my creative juices, drying out. gotta replenish. watch friends...

-hazelnut spread lovin-

Dripping Flops

2007-09-12T17:03:00.000+08:00

pft...

grabe the batch pictorial was stressful. due to the rain, di na tuloy natuloy ung prepared namin na five poses for the batch. sad. and it was raining so hard we were all wet, and i think maraming magkakasakit. tsk tsk.

pero despite the conditions, the pictorial still pushed through. im very thankful to the people who kept their cool (although meron pa rin talagang iba who cannot shell out some sophistication pero ok lang) kahit na basa ung grass. some were even joking around, and the batch reps and other council members were helping facilitate, and all of them were listening... as adi puts it, it is a very fortuitous event.

sana ma-edit ung photos because our feet are drenched and since it's kind of windy, our hairs are partying on their own... tapos mejo may mga puddles of mud pa dun sa amphitheater.. oh well...

(sana pede ulitin ung batch pics para mas fresh na ko.. hehe)

-puddle puddle puddle-

Ambiguous Bag

2007-09-10T21:16:00.000+08:00

i probably did the wrong thing by drinking coffee at 9 in the evening. well what can i do? it goes well with fita crackers dipped in hazelnut finetti... hmmmm..

anyways. my bag, the bag with no dorsal or front or bottom side, finally gave out. the very delicate leather holdings connecting the shoulder strap to the bag tore apart while we were walking to lunch last friday. well. vida tied the strap to the other dangling straps to make it still look like a bag. but you know, i cant go to school carrying a bag that looks like a makeshifted sack... so i bought another one. i still like the old one though. but this other one is cool too because it has pouches on the sides where i can put a jug or a water-bottle (and oh, yeah it does have a side now... it's actually rectangular.)...

but i still miss my other bag though... :|

ooooooooh...

im so wide-awake right now. ha ha .. hahahahhaa. hhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh.

-rearranging my shoe rack-

Sans Laude

2007-09-06T15:45:00.000+08:00

aujourd'hui est un assez jour - un peu bon, un peu mauvais.

j'ai passé un examen orale pour français 14 ce matin, et je suis heureux parce qu'il a passé bien. on a fait une dialogue par rapport l'unité deux du forum. j'ai gagné dix-neuf sur vingt. c'est bon pour un etudiant d'economies comme moi. demain, on commencera le niveau français 15. whoohoo!

il y a quelque fois où je rêves de me matriser au baccalauréat des langues européens. si je le fais, il sera mon ticket pour etudier a l'europe. hmmmm.

de toute façon...

je vous dirais le mauvais chose. j'ai su que je ne pourrais pas avoir une laude pour ma diplome. mon GWA est tres bas. c'est 1,93, tres loin de la limite pour avoir le cum laude - 1,75. si je gagnerais des <<uno>> pour tout mes niveaux, il ne suffira pas. si j'avais etudié mieux, j'aurais eu un meilleur GWA. quel dommage.

ah, bon. c'est la vie. on ne peut pas avoir tout le gloire. et le cum laude... c'est rien. le plus important est on tienne les leçons pour survivre la vie. c'est le plus important.

alors je vais retourner a mon devoir. c'est le passif - tres tres interessant.

-desole ma mere, je vous ai raté...-

Alexandra Bouxouei

2007-09-05T18:07:00.000+08:00

hey! i found the cutest girl! check her out..

isn't she cute or what?!?! her name's alexandra bouxouei (i dunno if i spelled that right...). she's a singer who's part lao part bulgarian, and she's currently living in thailand. she speaks lao, english, bulgarian, and some thai, and she plays the violin.

and you know what's really interesting about her? she was born the 28 of may! 1987!!! yes! that's only like the day i was born! HAH!

and that makes her 20 like me! isn't she the cutest thing??

you know what, someday, we will meet in thailand, and we will get married...

oooh cant wait.

-see ya!-

Raw Portraits

2007-09-04T19:39:00.000+08:00

owtei!

grabbed photos from angie's multiply. these were some of the raw pictures of the edboard portrait. raw because we're planning to have them edited in photoshop to achieve the frosty feel of those D&G campaigns we saw on the internet.

heeeey checkitout!

is this the right angle?

see the transformation!!?!?!? cool right? and wait.. eunice? IN MAKE-UP?!?! wha?

arghh. my photobucket won't open suddenly. tsk.

can't wait for the contact prints.

-grad pictorial-

Grad Pictorial

2007-09-02T10:24:00.001+08:00

HHHUUUUUAAAAAAHH!!

the stress. phew! my grad pictorial is over, it was a very nice experience pero kakapagod. the editorial board portrait was HOT! yey! i can't wait to have the copies..

hrmf, kakapagod.

-D&G-

Xpango Referrals

2007-09-01T06:53:00.000+08:00

to anyone who is reading this:

help! i've been wanting to have one of these gadgets i saw on the internet and i need credits to have it. please visit http://www.xpango.com?ref=90700796!! it's so cool, it offers free gadgets in exchange for credits blah blah..

like the one i ordered for instance... i just need 18 credits and it's free. yey!

-freebie-

Pre-Shoot Obstacles

2007-08-29T19:48:00.000+08:00

sad.

my friends are having their graduation pictures taken right now (barkada pics included), while im stuck with myself, swimming on my own pool of photocopied paper, preparing for my exams tomorrow. bakit naman kasi of all times, natapat pa ung dalawa kong exams this week...? unfortunately for me, my gradpics will not be eye-bag-free.

wala nang pumapasok sa utak ko. tsk. i cant wait for my shoot. by that time, tapos na ung physics at international econ exams ko. saaaaaaaaatuuuuuuuuuuurdayyyyyyyy...

huff. hell week all over again.

-christiaan huygens-

Bibo Things

2007-08-24T21:00:00.000+08:00

a lot of good things happened to me today.

first. my french quiz went well. i studied well about the french comparaison, les comparatifs et les superlatifs, because the last time we had a quiz about it, i barely made an 8 out of 15 possible correct items. by my standards, it's below performance level, so i studied well for the next quiz. i got 21 correct answers out of 25 this time. not bad!

second. the batch shirts were released today, and i got one for free! yehey! i was so bibo for passing a design for the batch shirt... good thing my batchmates liked it. it won an election, and i was given a starbucks gift certificate worth Php200 pesos. that is in addition to my batch shirt being free. yehey! im very happy about it because i was just fooling around at adobe photoshop one day, designing a batch shirt, and now it's been printed, and lies at the foot of my bed. the feeling is ecstatic. im actually euphoric. inside my head im saying... "i made that shirt. i made that shirt! and now everybody has one." wow, i feel proud.

third. when i finally got my starbucks gc's, i wasted no time going to both of katip's starbucks cafes and scouring for the best-looking tumbler up in the displays. i was craving for a tumbler for the longest time now, since im always buying coffee in school when i already have coffee at home. i thought maybe i should buy a tumbler para magbabaon na lang ako ng kape. so after some hopping around the cafe displays, i bought a Philippine-flag-inspired tall tumbler, and i like it. it's like being patriotic, coffeeholic, economic and ergonomic at the same time.

after my dismissal, i also finally photocopied the three readings we have to study for international economics. and that's supposed to be a good thing, although up until now, i still don't feel like it is.

then i also helped out at the senior batch's cheerdance practices. although i wouldn't be able to attend the schoolympics tomorrow, im glad that i helped in my small simple ways by putting my ipod on their employ. good ipod, good ipod. that's another good thing.

finally, i just finished my haraya assignments, the minutes, the pubmats, and everything else. i just have to buy like 9 packs of nimble-food when i go home to batangas. they will be repacked into smaller bags and sold at lower prices, tapos the profit from the fundraiser will go to haraya's petty cash. as of now, we have like, Php225 pesos on hand. (grreat right? i know it's too small to be considered an asset, but hey, it's petty cash in the first place. lalaki din yan.)

buti na lang magaling magpaikot ng pera ung edboard heads.!! yey!

important lesson learned: returns from being bibo always add up to larger things, so always be bibo. bibo is the way to go..!

-godspeed-

Rainy Weekend

2007-08-20T13:21:00.000+08:00

soooo.

i eventually went back to batangas the afternoon of friday because boredom, my dauntingly silent but overwhelmingly annoying roommate, came to life and told me to pack my things and go... so i packed my things, hoping that batangas would give me some life-loving.

unfortunately, batangas is as boring as QC during rainy days. :|

...

well i used to love rainy days, back when i was half of a melancholic kid who loves to hear how the rain drops make thumping noises on the rooftop. it's kind of relaxing, in my own terms now, although back then id term it as "taking me away to a better place..." haha!

what a sad child i was.

maybe i don't enjoy the rain that much anymore because im a happier person now. hmmm...

...

im not much of a bragger person but can i just say: i became a tailor over the 6-day weekend. ha! there actually comes a time when eating, sleeping, sweeping the floor, or watching porn stop sufficing our anti-boredom needs. seeing the many many tops that i dont wear in my closet (they're either too big or too small or too ugly.), i decided to give them an overhaul. you know. try to fit them over my disappointingly unsculpted body. it's kind of fun, although you'd probably develop carpal-tunnel syndrome if you keep doing it. but it's fun nevertheless.

...

oooh, vanilla flavored coffee. i like. only it's not meant to be brewed. tsk, i love brewed coffee. oh well. that's what opportunity cost of pulverizing coffee and cramming it in foil packs.

i cant wait for my starbucks gc's!! which kind of tumbler will buy???

...

im gonna go watch friends season 3 now.

-my rainy weekend-

Flooble Pad

2007-08-17T06:35:00.000+08:00

well, out of boredom, i embedded a wishlist on the sidebar. just in case you were planning to give me something because you like me and you want me happy since i have a side that's completely materialistic... you can browse the pad, see if you can buy me one gray tee, or a pencil case, or a robust mug... or a car? why not... right?

i suggest you buy me a vios. it's cheap.

...

okay, mum texted and told me i can't go home to batangas. apparently, she's the one coming over, to our cousin's condo in makati, because cousin accidentally made herself pregnant... with a guy who has a wife and kids... great.

*blok blok blok*

im boooooored.

-egay-

Break-Even Suspensions

2007-08-15T22:41:00.001+08:00

wala na naman pasok bukas?? tanginaaaaaaaaaaaa... patong patong na makeup classes ko! at actually sa dami ng class suspensions eh namimiss ko na pumasok. tsak.

as an economist, i think there is a certain number of class suspensions optimal for schooling, and i believe that we are way beyond that optimal level already. i was just reading a certain peyups thread, and am still hating those people who wished that friday would be suspended as well. blaha?? are they not acquainted with the concept of make-up classes and crammed deadlines? not to mention the overlapping exam periods caused by numerous rescheduling.

oh no, there's no moving the graduation pictorials, no no.

...

on the lighter side of things, napatunayan ko na things DO always find their way back. sabi nga ni luna lovegood, although not all of them come back in a regular fashion, they still come back. like ung umbrella ko. i kind of lost it for how many hours today (sa jollibee) and i almost gave up my search of it. buti na lang, i went back to jollibee to buy me a serving of nacho beef fries, tas un, binalik sakin nung guard ung umbrella. great right?

hmmm. i wonder what other things might come back... yee.

...

im currently downloading the third season of friends. can i just say, i so love this series. i remember the last time i watched friend's season 6, it helped me through some tough life problems. ive watched seasons 1 and 8 (i know, kind of skippy, but that's the way the torrents want it.) im planning to download them all, since it's free and safe and it will benefit me in many other ways (haraya is up with its dvd rentals, i might be able to contribute... although they're all pirated, but that's another story). then after that, i'll download heroes, and then gray's anatomy, and then scrubs if i still have time.

...

you know what, i had this weird dream - i was in malaysia, studying, but it was very difficult because i ddint have much money, and the situation is very adverse, i had to duck out of many misadventures. it's not vivid anymore, but it's really engaging coz i woke up breaking a sweat and my heart was racing.

...

yey! starbucks has reopened! and it's bigger, and better, and... greener! see it has expanded land area by buying out the beauty shop that lead a butthole existence beside it, so now the store's bigger. and i saw the drapes and they're all pastel green. i like... i wish i get my gc's this week; im itching to buy me one of those rangy starbucks tumblers. it is the perfect time to have one since it's the rainy season so there's more cold mornings, and i am currently experimenting on my coffee blends. (actually, instant coffee blends, hehe). im gonna try out sugar-free nescafe coffee and vanilla flavored coffee creamer, see if it mixes well.

...

c'est tout! happy sleeping everyone.

-updates-

Bébé Rit

2007-08-15T17:54:00.000+08:00

mintymonsters...

ang cute! oggle oggle..

-bébé-

Canning Love

2007-08-12T07:14:00.000+08:00

ambababaw.

man, i know it's too early to be hating for the day, but why can't people just stop talking about luuuhv for a minute? i surf the net and all i read about are cheesy testimonials about love, or bitter love, or anything in between... you know, there's nothing wrong if we drab on love once in a while, but it is not all that there is! lives do not revolve completely on love! they're making love more and more common, more and more stale, it's losing it's sacred appeal. what's worst is that these people sound like they're preaching about love, sending out quotes and things that people don't even have to read. people do not need these things, because love is an instinct, it's hard-wired in our systems, as humans, to love other humans, that's why love doesn't have to be taught. it's wrong to teach it. just wrong. it's like teaching a dog how to bark .

hay. why can't people just talk about cakes, or surface tension, or something else that's more sensible... tsk.

-im allergic to cheesy people-

Power Layouting

2007-08-11T21:16:00.000+08:00

oomph.

god the taste of jolly cheezy fries on nachos and hot chocolate swiss miss with double servings of burger steak... oohh, heaven. and the bed was never better. the simple joys of being at home with nothing to do after some rigorous power-adobe-photoshop-layouting-session with haraya, aaahhh... can i just say - sleep is bliss.

im profoundly astounded by the dedication i embodied yesterday when we started creating the graduation primer designs starting mid afternoon of friday and ending at 8 this morning. non-stop. talk about power-layouting. i have the most supportive team around me. Haraya is a force!

and everything is made spicier because, see, we are the centennial graduating batch of the university of the philippines.. how cool is that? ha!

100 my friends!

-click!-

Deep Sea

2007-08-08T17:26:00.000+08:00

rainy days are perfectly made for bummy hours of movie marathon. today should've been hectic for me: a Haraya meeting should've started my day, followed up by a trip to makati to fetch the council's money from stocks, and cap the day with the bagsakan of SIDHI's first issue. well, all of these scheduled events were scrapped off the calendar when the rain got started. and im home snugged in my most comfortable sweater, watching movies that inspire me despite the very gloomy surroundings.

i just finished watching aliens of the deep, a science documentary directed by james cameron. it is a feature film about deep-see life and how the environment that barely knows the sun creates a very precise depiction of life on other worlds. it's kind of ironic, that to be able to understand life on other planetary systems, we must dive to the guts of the deepest oceans and study it's life. the stars/scientists in the movie says deep-water life is the closest thing to extraterrestrial life that you could get here on earth. ominous blind fish, pale sinister crabs, and tall tubular worms thrive in the area where the freezing water clashes with hydrothermal vents, creating an environment where temperatures fluctuate from near boiling to near freezing. oh and if you could just see the octopi.. weird transluscent octopi... my favorite is dumbo. it's an octopus that reminds us of dumbo the elephant because it has big flappy ears and a stocky physiology.

anyways, as of current, the best astrobiologists, physicists and astronomers are exploring the near solar system for signs of extraterrestrial life. after earth, the most popular choice is mars, because mars seems to have a history of having water, the most essential compound to sustain life. but higher technology and higher education suggests that there can be other places for a search.. NASA is trageting the moons of jupiter, the four largest moons of the largest planet in the solar system, because they exemplify characteristics of the deep-see environment.

orbiting jupiter are two large celestial ice worlds: ganymede and callisto, two great grey rocks that are believed to be containing liquid water underneath their barren and icy carapace. orbiting just close is another big moon, Io, whose yellow crust is dotted with volcanoes and geysers, making it knows as the world of fire. these three moons are believed to be rearing some foreign kind of life that is not based on photosynthesis but on chemosynthesis. they partially resemble the environment of the deep-sea.

but orbiting yet closer to jupiter is another very interesting moon - europa. like the other three largest moons, europa is a very harsh environment, but what's unique about it is that it is a land of fire and ice. ocean ridges which are sources of fresh magma (yep, i learned from my geol class) lace the permafrost shell covering europa's crust. and scientists believe there is non-photosynthetic life thriving underneath the icy surface. this is what the underwater explorations are all about... to imitate europa's nature before a satellite is sent to explore it.

at the end of the film, the filmmakers depict a scene in the future, when a satellite manned by two scientists penetrates the thick ice covering europa... underneath the ice, there is an ocean, and a lot of stone structures, and everything is blue. the submersible spins around and a creature approaches. it has tentacles, it has eyes. it resembles an octopus or a squid, only, it is in a weird way, humanoid. it stretches out a tentacle that tapers into two fingerlike appendages, touches that glass of the submersible, as black female scientist inside reaches out too... and then the camera wheels in to reveal a community of such creatures, and behind them, there was a structure that gleams with biotic light... and the movie fades to black.

coool. not cool like, sci-fi movie cool. it's cool because you know in some part of your brain that it can happen, when humans can finally interact with an extraterrestrial species and transcend the limits of evolution...

cool right? it's hard-science-nasa-physics-meets-biology-stuff. i would be glad to live to the day when scientists will proclaim to the world that they found life on the moons of jupiter. hmmmm, what joy could that be?

-dumbo-

Parchment Scrolls

2007-08-05T19:28:00.000+08:00

i spent my weekend creating Haraya's pubmats for the yearbook's panelboard. since the theme of the yearbook is 17th century Europe, and the overall theme of Haraya for this year is the centennary, i made extra effort of giving an old style camelot effect in my materials. i used scrolls, old gaelic fonts, and gold colors to emphasize it's "centennial-ness." here:

first i printed out the base materials (im beginning to love CMYK because the colors on the monitor are what comes out of the printer.). Then i glossed them over with a compound composed of white coat glue and water. Then i let them dry over an electric fan.

after the "electric fan" stage, i also air-dried the mats (you see them now hanging on my bathroom door haha!).

then after air-drying, i cut out the excess pieces of paper, and voila! pubmats!! the edboard is gonna love this. it's perfect for the two themes...

two more assignments and im done for the day. i hope my batchmates cooperate with all this.

-camelot-

Contract Signing

2007-08-03T18:46:00.000+08:00

every now and then, a savior comes to us and rescues us from the very lonely throes of acad life.

for me, today, it comes in the form of haraya. thanks to it, i momentarily forgot about my daunting french class standing. and why am i obsessing about my french grade all of a sudden? well... let's say i've come to the realization that it is what sets me apart from the horde of econ students that i come into contact with all week. if they have flambouyant personalities and soaring GWA's, i have... well... french.

i know it's mismatched analogy, but to me it is the only way i know how to make sense of my french electives... hehe. erm.

anyways, i love haraya because i always feel happy when im doing something for the yearbook. it makes me feel that in some way, indirectly, i could relate to my batchmates, and help the batch in the way i know how to.

anyways again, today at dinner, we had a contract signing with our photographers for the grad pic and printer for the yearbook. (schlewp i love scallops, my favorite.) can i just say, signing contracts made me feel a bit jittery. coz while i was penning my whispy signature on the pristine piece of paper, i became aware that i am of legal age in this country, and i could get sued if something went awry... and that doesn't just mean reprimands and vocal exercises... it is law as we know it, the kind that jails felons and kills murderers through electric shock (well at least a decade ago). i just wish nothing goes wrong until the yearbook is published. im afraid of being jailed.

so, since the first wave of exams is over for me, i could allot my whole weekend to making pubmats for the panel board and creating a yearbook dummy for layout (oh yes, im not only the associate editor of haraya, i am also a member of ace's layout team. i am so bibo and all... :p). im so digging designing things. maybe i should take an advertising elective or something.

-image-

Grade Conscious

2007-08-02T22:33:00.000+08:00

what misery it is to find yourself committing mistakes you were never aware of.

i was very confident during the french exam i had last monday because i was at the height of my exam week and my brain is in full-blast study mode. i simply brushed through the exam, intelligently sufficing each blank with a coherent conjugated verb or whatever. i was even fancying a very high grade..

unfortunately, i committed mistakes i weren't even aware of committing. when i got back my paper, i had 30 mistakes overall. it was painstakingly big.

i scanned through my mistakes and found out that i was so careless in conjugating the verbs... so lame, i couldn't forgive myself. the thing is i knew the answer, but i wrote a different thing, maybe due to carelessness, or mere stress, i dunno. but im pretty sure in myself that i knew the right answers, only my hand wrote differently.

my score should've been 77. tsk. how lame.

i promise myself that i'd do better in the next exam, and i will give extra effort to reviewing my answers before i submit my paper... it's so stupid not to.

-get over it...-

Mumbo Jumble

2007-07-29T03:25:00.000+08:00

*3 am* i like this song...

what's the reason why im blogging at three in the morning? well, i woke up from sleep because i dreamt about me going cuckoo in some familiar restroom because my econ121 exam coincided with a presentation for french... so i was thinking (dreaming) how i was gonna do that. unfortunately for me, it's no bad dream, because i actually have to do that on monday.

and on tuesday, the french exam, then on wednesday, the dreaded international econ exam. brrrr...

during times like this, it's better to talk about happier things, like the michelle branch song now playing over my ears, or the subsiding of my gory allergy, or the purchase of my new fully-functioning water dispenser.

or that the haraya edboard's preferred studio won the election by landslide, and/or i might be getting free gift certificates after all (from the batch shirt design contest, yey!!) im planning to buy a starbucks tumbler. :p

im still thinking about my creative shot, because i have a dilemma: will i be angel gabriel, or will i be the little prince? i dont have costumes for both, and both need to radically change the color of my hair, tsk, but i really want to, you know... be someone particular in my shots.

otherwise id simply be a chicken peeking on what's left of my plans inside three stories of palayok.

nah, that's so not me.

-assoced-

Allergic Reaction

2007-07-25T19:12:00.000+08:00

i never thought i'd share my mums allergic reaction to dust. i mean of all things... first crustaceans, then detergents, and now... dust! im itching all over and big red blotches are appearing all over my body. gross. it's even worse than when i first drank alcohol.

the dermatologist suggests i use a topical lotion to hold the itchy areas down, but for chrissake i have hyperhidrosis - greasy stuff make me feel icky and i sweat. fuck how'm i gonna get over this??

and exams are coming... grrrreat...

-trapped-

July Annecdotes

2007-07-23T19:16:00.000+08:00

went to UP today. like the normal mondays i trod up fast upon the unkempt lawns of the walkway that leads to the college of arts and letters. i was putting my id lace on place in preparation for the sinister guard that mans the college's front gate, missing the gates that were not open at all. the bars were gold, i have noticed for the first time...

"nakasarado yan buong araw, walang klase," says the guard. the next thing i knew i was walking angrily to the jeepney pool area, cursing under my breath why i had to wake up early today, ignorant of the fact that we dont have classes all over the university.

and then i realized - nobody texted me or called. how lame, of me or the world, not being able to tell me there are no classes... what? has communication gone default?

god. how lame. someone should've texted me.

i arrived home dodging my keys on one hand, and three different kinds of meds on the other. one is a very powerful over-the-counter drug, i just realized today. i bought it to decongest my clogged nose. when i popped the yellow pill into my mouth, not more than 15 minutes later, i was groggy and i had to sleep.

i fell into a very deep sleep, something i hadn't experienced ever before. it felt good, a kind of detachment process, when every waking vein in my body simply blacked out and fell into hibernation. terrific, for a person like me who is constantly under the throes of insomnia.

it makes me think, "this is how people get addicted to drugs."

when i woke up, i was thinking of getting myself a coffee fix - a latte. white chocolate based mocha with a splash of raspberry syrup sprinkled with confectionery sugar... hmmm. the deep sleep was good but i had to wake up from it.

three hours later, after watching a very inspiring movie about love (wow, love still exists does it? for a while i was under the impression that love is simply the word that gives slum books a brighter shade of pink.) i went out to cut my hair. "too long and too messy, and it makes my head triangular," i cursed my growing mane of bister-colored hair, and i was every degree happy to go to the coiffeurs.

when i went home, my phone was flooding with about 9 messages already - not a usual occurrence. and then inside my head i was, "how ironic, this morning, i didn't have any message at all..."

and so i got acquainted to the ironies of life again. a very humbling thought.

-late july-