Ill Tempers

disclaimer: i may be brooding over the negative behaviors of certain people at this moment, but it doesn't mean im a brooder all over. im still determined to be a good person. it's just that i feel the need to express my feelings toward negative behavior so that they could be corrected.

my atmosphere is teeming with ill-tempered people nowadays. it seems to me that many people are incapable of controlling their emotions, making them very unpredictable during normal circumstances. like yesterday for example. i was marketing for a brand sale proposal at nike and the telephone operator (the first layer call point, not the marketing department) bitched out on me, undermining the proposal which i had faxed earlier without even reading it. i knew it was disrespectful to answer back, and i am in fear of rank-pushing, so there was i, dumbfounded, listening to a shrieky female voice that was questioning me about the short time interval before then and the actual brand sale.

then this morning, i was shamed in front of a teacher in class for a joke that was just intended for pun and nothing else. im amazed at how certain people fail to recognize a joke when they hear one. sharp words were thrown at me despite the fact that i threw a joke and nothing beyond that. well this failure says a lot about a person. i have been hurt by this person before, and the last time the person did that, the person told me that it was merely the person's nature to bitch out. part of her nature, the person reiterates. if that is still so, then it is not wrong for me to conclude that the person generally has a very bad personality, which explains a lot of things about this person. things that i can only recount on my very closest of friends...

and finally, there is a part of the econ populace that still hasn't gotten over the feuds that were created during last sem's elections. even though everything have been glossed over by now, i still feel the cold treatment from certain people whose names i dont need to mention. i said once, im trying to be nice to everybody, but they are the ones who keep sour-graping over simple things. as a person determined to be a better person, i can't tarry longer to wait for them to get over their problems. if they dont like me, i dont like them either. it may be discriminating, but it makes me a better person because at least im not being a hypocrite.

if you are reading this entry, i hope you understand that i am a person too, equipped with an emotional backbone, and complete with emotional complexes to perceive such harsh treatment. i believe i have the right to rant.

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on the lighter side of things...

buti na lang masaya ang council life ko. marketing is very worthwhile doing. it gives me a lot of insight about the corporate world.

masaya din ang acad life ko. so far, naiintindihan ko pa ang mga lessons ko kahit na wala pa ang aking mga libro. i hope i get high grades this sem, but i wont hope much because disappointment is very very bitter.

i dont normally eat spicy food, but this morning, when i woke up, my brain told me, "i will eat zinger tonight..." and i did. it's not spicy pala. it's just like the normal chicken fillet but it's bigger it has more dressing, and the patty is crispier. then i chugged it down with C2 apple, yey delicious.

my senior friends last year went to econ this afternoon and we had a good chitchat. most of them are still waiting for their job offers, while some are continuing their study by taking a master's degree or going to law school. im altogether happy for them because they seem to be taking roads that lead to greener pastures. part of me though is envious, because i still have to hurdle a thesis before i could embark on a better life, but well... it's what we have to do to reach our dreams right?

so smooth sailing ahead.

i hope i could get a girlfriend soon.. but im just saying. nothing serious about it.

-little of your time-