Unaiming Thoughts

youch. tomorrow is d-day.

french quiz, econometrics comprehensive exam, geog long exam. erf. i havent studied for geog yet. tomorrow na lang. econ131 muna.

i thought getting into IDEA was as easy as just barging in that enigmatic door before the comp lab... but no. it requires a resume and a true copy of grades from the college secretary. deng. and we still have to be interviewed for that. oh well...

will try nevertheless. at the moment, im a grab-bag. come what may. do what may.

i have this little sense of accomplishment today because i was able to pay my utilities at last minute stretch, do the grocery, and get home before 6. ive just pondered upon this idea that, what keeps a person through are the tiny little accomplishments that manage to sprout in one's life despite overall chaos. at least in my position, that's what keeps me going. everything maybe in ruins, but hell, the time cannot escape without any fruit.

so here i am, cozy at home. waiting for 7:40. i set a deadline upon myself. after that is hardcore studying. if i get tired after one hour, id sleep the headache in my head, and continue studying tomorrow morning (4:00). sleep is important you know.

...

tin left me! you nigga! i thought we'd go home ensemble?? oh well. nobody challenges the will of your dada. you werent even able to text a buhbye... it's kinda funny and freaky at the same time when i imagine tin being picked up from school by dada, at 19 years of age, with no trace of bad record, with a clean academic status, with nothing to ground her about. oh well. i am lucky i have my freedom.

but sometimes too much freedom suffocates. its like you're gonna burst due to the hypotonicity of your liberation. sometimes people need to have delimiters to keep everything collected. but not naman that delimiting. nah.

whatever. poor tin. but whatever happens of the suppression, let me just tell you this: thank you for inspiring all, me at least. you're quite a life you know. you just dont know it.

-allez!-