Jadedness on a Couple of Indecisions

things change. people leave, some stay. brood over.

at the brink of what seems to be the threshold of patience for me, i have this forever moment, a time in slow mo - it made me re-think everything. look back and analyze.

what has this experience made me. H. Vampiricus. as i thirst for blood it all comes crashing down on me.

YOU HAVE STALED.

and at the resources you have right now, there's nothing much you can do about it.

-jaded-

Four Novels and Transcendence by Words

Paige sees herself, younger, walking up the stairs out of the shop. She readies her gun. She sees her younger self look up to her, an emotion on her face resembles fear. She wanted to shoot the young Paige, free her of the sorrow that will stretch to her future for two centuries.
-The Starlight Crystal (Christopher Pike)
...

Velutha swims through the river, finds her at the banks, and makes love to her, for all time's sake.
-God of Small Things (Arundhati Roy)
...

The goon points a gun on his nape, shouts, and fires. Hassan was gone.
The Kite Runner (Khaled Hosseini)
...

Then the woman stiffens, Henry puts his right foot forward and the floor creaks. She turns, and it's Clare, Clare old! She walks up to him slowly and Henry catches her on his arms...
The Time Traveler's Wife (Audrey Niffenegger)
...

Cathartic.

The four stories that made me cry. Go get yourselves a copy. ;p

-stirred-

Five Inches Short from that Long-Lived Runway

still out there.

ho well. i guess it's just the time of the year... read: Valentine's. it's always a sad sad holiday.

at least i have my cheese floss with me. hmmm..

so i went to this go-see for a casting call for models. i was in vtr, and they took pictures and stuff. i thought it was gonna be fun, you know, like how they pictured it in the movies or the tv shows like gossip girl... wala lang. it bored me to death.

yeah you're surrounded by a posse of greek gods and goddesses, but i felt more.. alone. like im so out of place.

eff. anyways they used me on the pictures which they cataloged somewhere. i went home with Php3,000.00 and a sore back. how lame.

i need to have my adrenals checked. something's wrong with my serotonin level.

-boooore-