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Happy Hollow's!

i just bought a copy of Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince two days ago. i'm not able to read it though because I'm working at the moment. hope i can read it tomorrow - which is a day off. good thing the book doesn't cost too expensive anymore. and i bought it using my own money.

I dont want to go to school yet! waa!

aryt, gotta go.

-hollows-

Rejuvenated

hey hey! I was Multiply-ing a while ago, and i came upon one of my friend's poetry ridden homepage. i thought it was a beautiful poem, so i "copied" it here. take a look:

~0~

A glee that hit...

A candle in the dark that suddenly lit...

A touch of bliss uplifting my spirit...

A shimmering beam that one can’t beat...

A glow bringing an irrepressible heart-warming heat...

A masquerade that once was concealed...
A facade about to be revealed...
A dreary existence that once prevailed...
A new being soon to be unveiled...



~ R E J U V E N A T E D ~

cool, ain't it? i think i have a habit of copying someone's lit into my blog... i think the poetry is beautiful because of the photo that comes with it. this poem gave me goosebumps the first time i read it. there's something in it that gives me a feeling of foreboding. and that shot, look at that shot! that photo is stunning... i wish i could write a poem like this some day.

http://icecream02.multiply.com/journal/item/3?last_read=1&mark_read=icecream02:journal:3

-inspired-

Random2

Yey! not much work to do since last week. i'm beginning to get bored at work. but well... this is better than staying at home where it can be stifling hot during the dismal hours...

i've been informed that one of my highschool classmates is undergoing an operation of the ovary because she's got a cyst there. see what living in urban areas can do to everyone. disease plagues us. i hope she survives this event unscathed. i don't want to lose a precious.

how many preciouses have i lost anyways?

pretty many...

the list is a never-ending story:
-juelliene j... my pretty heart-faced classmate in La Salle during my freshman year. she's such a good vibe to have inside the classroom. Now she's in Canada.
-edgar is almost a close friend. He's a good-natured guy, now he's in Italy, claiming that he's become a different person, and he's sorry for it.
-paula is the sincerest girl i've known. I thought there'll be some good friendship after high school, but vwala, she migrated to down under. I've never heard much from her since then...

tsk tsk tsk. too bad. i hate goodbyes. guys, no more migrations please.

*dismal hour - dismal attitude*

the start of classes is drawing nearer... i don't feel like going to school right now. i dunno, but the 3 semesters i've been in UP, i've been living a standoff. no spark, no significance, no nothing. i haven't proven to myself yet that UP is the most exciting university there is in the nation. what a waste of time.

i could have gathered as much friends as i had back in lasalle, instead, all i have are acquaintances, a a very small circle of friends. i should have hit on a lot of girls, but well (hopeless case). I should have ran for whatever honors my highly medicated brain could attain, but what did i do? I started college with a blast. A destructive blast. not that glamorous...

haay...

-sigh-

Arthritic

Ugh...

Jesus, what have i gotten myself into??

The sembreak was quite long - one month. The day when my sem officially broke, i was thinking maybe i could afford to spend my time doing something so that i dont get so bored (because when i get bored, my mind wanders to a lot of nowheres, and i end up wanting to kill myself...). so, i thought maybe i could spend my time uhh working... to get some money, which my mum had put on the cut upon me... So I asked my ninang to board me into something that's like an office, has conditioned air, and doesn't require me to walk around and talk and talk and work my butt till it's sweaty... So she boarded me into a computer shop, which is what i was exactly thinking about. We talked to the manager of the shop - she said if i will work for them over the sembreak, i'd be working on commission for the papers that i am able to accomplish (BTW, the official term for my part-time working is ENCODER... cyool.). 40% for every thing that i did. We had the deal.

Anyhows, i started working last wednesday or thursday... And JESUS! I've been working since then. Part-time is a deceitful word. Part-time means Full time here. Fuck. I work from 9:30 till evening. People kept on coming, wanting to have their papers type written. Good thing i can encode quite quickly (because i dont have to look at the monitor when im typing - i've memorized the keyboard... go me). But still... Ugh.

My back is shitty already. Im earning money but I'm losing my backbone. Grrr... and my hands are always numb whenever i retire in the evening. well, well, what have i gotten myself into.

but i think it's better than just wallowing at house (where my most berated enemy frequents), i'd rather be in the shop. typing. typing. typing. tap tap tap.

My co-workers are great. They're so human. kept on sporting the easy-go-happy disposition. Neri is so into the manager stuff. good thing she's around, keeps me on my feet. Leny or Len is also funny because she's the youngest offspring like me and Neri told us we were quite the same. in things. in acting like - children. i dunno. Anyhows, we still happy although days could get as hectic as New York. But they still smiling. and I'd better do the same despite my aching backline and arthritic fingers.

Haay, I almost missed Daryl's and Pauline's birthdays. I still had the time to greet them hahberday.

I miss my friends. But i like working too (now...). My first sweldo will be given to me this saturday. Yey, i hope i make hundreds...

8:20 pm at the shop clock.

Geez, since when was my last entry? It's good that i had the time to blog. i didn't have the time to do anything aside from typing and typing. i just saw the results of my crs a while ago. me's so surprised and happy that i got 6 of the 7 subjects that i enlisted... yeba! one-time enlistment is working. i lost geol though. but hey!

i miss 'em pipz. what could they be doing over the sembreak?

mmm that it. the shop is closing. we goin home. byuh!

-arthritic-

Vanity

so happy, im happy happy happy...

Some things to keep me busy during the sembreak:

Angels and Demons (borrowed from lynnie, who was an OC, who doesn't want any spine lines in her book, even maltreated pages and folded somethings...); house of wax starring delicious paris hilton; guess who starring zoe saldana who is delicious too... she looks like jada pinkett smith...

Ak! Vanity attack!!









one of my manic episodes...


my cool pair of shorts...

im feelin sleepy now. i should call it a day... good luck to BB42 for their final exams and final papers and final whateverthings...

Terminate

YES!!! YES!!!

My sem is over!! finally! that psych exam was close to a stomper. good thang there wer bonus items worth 20 points.

huff, now i can breathe. its just now that i realize how tired i am. the past two days were the most stressful days this year so far. sleep had been elusive, but the eyes said otherwise. well id better catch on some good sleep to get my homeostasis back.

btw, i was chatting with tin yesternight. i cant believe tin hadn't been to a beach before... not even a town fiesta. and at 18 years of age, she hasn't even slept over a friend's house - not even her best friend's... geez, i never thought such a person exists.

anyhows, i was lucky i get to see the beach regularly. my favorite is laiya...

gaining friends, go me!:
-angie
-ria
-danielle
-carl
-nino
-michael
-etc...

nag-crs ako kagabi... i'll have french next sem, mathematical econ, history of econ thought, geol1, skin diving, and cwts... i hope next sem is not as cursed as my previous sem.

Acad

two majors down, one more finals to go.

my last exam is tomorrow. finally i can go back to lipa. i miss lipa. i haven't been home for two months now.

ugh, my mental faculties are failing me. i haven't paid attention to my pathos lately (which is a good thing i think). ugh, basically its gradual decomposition of self control.

d bale, the sem will break. for me it officially ends tomorrow. farewell to this cursed semester.

i have to do some catching up with my friends...

babay!

-acad mode-

Monologue2

monologue:

-you are so selfish, yes you. you are so like a tin-human. do u have a heart? i hope someone gives you something to melt down the aluminum that's binding u...

-let's meet when the sem breaks! aryt?? i'll see ya then.

-yeah, i think sir pernia is very rich. he's a bit of an OC too.

-i like you. is that enough?

-one large fries, and one value sized mcflurry... for take out.

-where the heck is the lounge?? i've been lost in this labyrinthine college of yours.

-just go here, ask the guard about the rates of the rooms, and go somewhere else. please don't bug my sleep.

-teka, dito ka ba kakain ng dinner? *oo, padeliver n lng tau* o cge, tawag ka na...

-RC! panu ung psych natin?? we haven't done anything!

-let's meet tomorrow, sa econ. we have to finish our psych report. bring ur micro notes, i have a lot of things to ask.

-one burger steak and solo chicken torpedo... mmm, for take out... (??)

-anu bang magandang songs??

-who the hell is this guy? i can't understand his tagalog.

-ugh, im hairier than ever. well, what's testosterone for... ??

-uy hi! san ka?

-*dangerously in love with you, i'll never leave!*

haay, boredom. five minutes before shutdown...

-bored-

Desperate1

knife! i need a knife!! i have to kill myself before boredom does!

ugh. i need someone to talk to. khit sino papatulan ko...

mmm, what could danazart be doing at this very moment?? matext nga...

-bored-

Kaboom

fuck, im too pissed to function. someone just destroyed my day. darn that draty little scumbag! Tuguush!! Tuguush! I gonna kill ya! I gonna kill ya! Here's an atomic bomb for you!!

tssssssssshhhhhhhhhh....

KABOOOOM!!

-exploded-

Learn

Jesus.

Now im experiencing what i want to call "backward growth of the intellect..."

my mind is resisting incoming information. i can hardly learn anything. first it was econ. now everything goes through the selective process of integration of my brain. and the selective process is becoming tighter and tighter. i will not be surprised if i develop dyslexia tomorrow.

i dont want to sound too knowing but i learned nothing from socio10. nothing but how good a sociologist randy david is - something that's almost a universal given in the UP department of sociology. i also learned that pinoys are heavily discriminated abroad (whoa now that is BRAND NEW INFORMATION!!), and that my teacher is such a faux postmodernist.

econ majors are still as alien to me as cisco. i still cant see myself 10 years from now, wearing an ADB coat, talking about Standard & Poor, with a cup of coffee, and sitting atop millions at my thirties.

psych - the only subject i can relate too, doesn't have the spark that it used to have. now it's just a blur. im wondering if psych is still a good course... it's too general. too softcore for medical school, too fancy for law.

I watched d'Anothers yesterday. at the end of the movie was a 4 minute backstage clip. Joross Gamboa talks about fun workshops conducted by Joyce Bernal... He was happy about it.

Geez, how old is he? i had my share of theatrical workshops when i was 12... that was 6 years ago. i even got myself in Cast A of plays directed by Rener Concepcion...

mmm, maybe my intellectual bloom had gone me by. now im in the rotten stage of intellectual decay. geez, it's too early, i haven't even thought of work after college and now this....

haay, too bad. i should have been utilizing college because its... well... essential... to... my future, lah.

well dammit, my degree of knowingness is well above the normal dose for adolescents. but ironically, im not as bright as when i was in high school. i may even be brighter when i was in elementary and preparatory school than now. fuck, what a waste of talent and thoughts. i need some brain tonic. maybe i just need to lubricate the squeaking gears of my brain cells.

on another viewpoint, maybe school is just getting on the way of my education...

oh no no. that would be too arrogant. i still learn from school.

yes. i still learn a lot from school.

-learning-

What

tut tut tut tut tut.

my life is an eternal standstill.

what could be bummier than a day with two homemade meals, one delivered breakfast, net-surfing for 6 hours, d'anothers, a lot like love, a smoky oven, rat pee, rat poo, electric fans, and a to-do list that's full of "final exam on..."??

What could be more brain-wreaking than a cwts paper, 3 final exams, and an incomplete list of credit hours for experiments?

what could be less nutritious than 4 packs of Pillows a day, oven-cooked pork chops, fast-food beef steak, and ketchup?? at least im drinkin water.

im wasted for not doing anything... what a waste of thought.

is it cold because it's raining? or is it cold because im alone? literally... rhetorically...

"You're Beautiful"

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Flying high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

-you're beautiful by james blunt-