Missing Baguio

so mum gets to go to Baguio for the hollow season and im stuck here in QC because no one will mind me if i stay at batangas at granny's house. holy whomping willow.

my baggage is packed, im ready to fly, then i receive a text message that says: "Moi, punta ko Baguio tomorrow, namove yung date... alis kami 7 am."

GODDAMIT I CAN TRAVEL TOO YOU KNOWAAAAA?!?!?!

well. they're probably in zone 9 now, say hello to ferdinand marcos for me...

since im left out, i demand two jars of chilled choco flakes, a livestone anklet, a small bag to replace my old jansport whose zipper is giving up, and a statuette with a huge bouncing eccentrically realistic dickie that never fails to be entertaining.

grrr...

and suddenly i can't wait for december! i want my notebook nooooowww!!

*blop blop*

ok so everyone's out, my family's in Baguio, one of my cousins went to canada, ayen's in cebu, len's in mindanao, kit is in saipan, and kristine guerra will be out of the scene soon... my my should i realize how boring my sem break is going? and a few days from now i'd be falling in line again to fill up my form5... so much time wasted.

speaking of form5, do they give out form5's to people who are non-majors???

i hope they do... coz even if christine told me that everyone passed econometrics, and angie said no one got a 5 in econ106, im still quite not sure if i have lifted my probation. ive been thinking of an appeal, that's what neri told me, if the worst case happens. but an appeal to who?? the undergraduate studies chair professor agustine arcenas?? yeah sure he's kind, but im kinda dubious as to his preference of discretion over law. if he is as kind as he is law-abiding, then there goes my economic career. oh le pouvre.

well i've always liked studying a foreign language....

...

i have just watched a movie entitled she's the man. it was hilarious! amanda bynes i mean. i love her. she's so humane. ok gots to go! choco jelly is waiting for me.

-jolibee-

Just Eclipsing

hello!

im visiting. realized sembreak's too boring without my desktop computer.

i've been bloating myself up at my lola's house in rosario. there's basically nothing to do there. for me at least. my kind cousins do everything for me. cook food (NOTE: home cooked food... when was the last time i ate such...? what like four months ago??), they do my laundry, they lend me things... they do everything. that why i wanted to spend the rest of the sembreak there instead of my home in lipa. though i miss the cool lipeño breeze, i can't find the will power to hang around our house any longer. it's sickening. it's been the lair of the darkest most disgusting creature to ever walk my world.

anyways rosario has been fun! yey.

good thing there's an escape from all of this. i've been inches away from a massive carabao, i've eaten almost 2 pounds of food in a single meal, i've slept like a baby since four months, haay. im glad rosario could save me from my econometric doom.

speaking of econometrics... uhm... im still hoping i could continue being an econ student next sem. but the chance is very slim. i dunno how id react to my expulsion. let's just hope i can ask for an appeal.

well. so long!

-aspire-

Jam Packing

im going home bai!!

-babay!-

Blootut Dibise

im booooored.

mum said im going home tomorrow. she said i have to stay at newly opened smlipa bloc the whole morning, then we go to rosario in the afternoon.. uh...

kahit sembreak, may sked pa din! uf.

i bought a bluetooth device from cd-r king. it's only 320 pesos, very cheap. the software interface is very user UNfriendly though. it takes two hours to finally assimilate the soft into the system. and i had difficulty trying to tap the file transfer protocol capability of the bluetooth device. pc suite is still better. but of course, what are the grounds in comparing nokia and cd-r king. whatever. bluetooth device is working now, so, transfer transfer...

it amazes me how electronics can be so powerful, it provides instant, real-time synchronization to the person who owns such technology. wow.

it's so amazing, a bluetooth field encompassing a radius of 50 meters is projected by a very tiny chip, so small i could easily lose it if i haven't tied it to a zip lace.

annnyyyways.

my room is going to get a power cleaning session from me tomorrow before i go home.

blah.

whadelse?

un.

-bai-

Sem Ends

yey! sem's officially over today. what else can i ask for the moment.

well, i could get a usb flash drive, a bluetooth device for my mobile (because the ukb cable had finally submitted to metalloid decay), or better yet, i can hope that my mum do find a way to get me the laptop..

uhm...

it's kind of weird because now, right at this moment, im longing to go to school, and do something. anything. academic, org-related, whatever. apparently i was fired with momentum by the bludgeoning of my exams that's why now im still suspended in movement. iit's like the inertia of oficially enjoying sembreak hasn't overcome the force that keeps me moving.

oh well...

things that happened the past week:
1. i got an uno in geog143, ta da!
2. kit texted me that she's going to saipan, and i could text her in some number... hmm....
3. i got a haircut with ayen at azta.
4. i talked to my french professor in.. french.
5. i realized i wouldn't want to let go of econ just yet.

etc.

see. i really dont have much to do now that it's sembreak. haay haay. at least at the moment i know im tired. oh yeah that's it. maybe i'll spend the break doing some complete rejuvenation of my withered self. how happy could that be?

i better go, im not making sense.

-brain, where are you??-

Geog 143

YYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!

God has granted my wish.

salamat sa uno.!!

geog is worth the while after all. weee!

tomorrow, we shall witness a deathday, as we, THE SECCOM Team, a powerful ensemble of minds, souls and model obsessions, deliver the ecosoc rats to their final destination.

brace yourselves!

-i'll stick!-

Almost There

yey! bio down, and im not even looking forward to taking a removal exam because i beat it. the exam. yihey!

two more to go, and my sem's over. although my future is as dark as alec kwec, im happy at the moment. conquering the bio exam is one gargantuan accomplishment.

it's funny that i started this sem with a french class, and im going to end it with a french dialogue. o geezers. maybe it's meant to be. i hope cal accepts me.

actually ive been thinking about public ad as alternative. it's far away though.

hayf. bahala na si batman. basta i should stick to what my friend told me a few days ago. "take each semester one subject at a time..." and i should always fret when my grades start getting tipsy.

-bleep-

Biologie biologie

waaah. sabaw na sabaw na ko. blrbepp blrpbopppp blurrr..

it's funny, i caught myself reading the rest of the biology book instead of the topics that i should read. i dunno, but animal taxonomy is way more interesting than photosynthesis and oxidative phosphorylation.

...

power studying at mcdonald's the other other other day!!

from the evening of tuesday




a few dora dora moments...

to the morning of wednesday!! yiehey! power studying!!

alors, je vais revenir a mon lecons... biologie est embetante. mais elle est interessante. je veux etudier la taxonomie et l'anatomie comparatif des vertebrates. mais, cela devra attendre. pour maintenant, je vais penser comment reussir l'exam finale de biologie onze.

alors, au revoir!

-l'aperture sinoatriale ouvre a la sine venose...-

Freaky Nightmare

im frightened.

i had this nightmare. it's freaky, i was in a dark dungeon made of slate boulders. it was gloomy and the air was putrid; i imagined myself frowning. i was running through a labyrinth, running away from something, until i reached a room with a bench and prison bars behind it. suddenly a female voice echoed through the chamber, drawing nearer and nearer. i felt something heavy on my hand, looked at it, and saw a sleek and shiny dagger. i brandished it in midair. the voice is so close now...

i looked back, away from the bench, then reverted back when i felt a stone hit me at the back. near the bench was a girl with shiny spectacles, flailing her hands, calling out clear phrases about her school affairs. i was so frightened, i didnt know what to do. then i felt the dagger float in the air with my hand, aimed at the girl, and moved close towards her. for a couple of seconds, i closed my eyes. i felt the dagger hit something hard, then gave way. i felt the dagger withdrew and plunged again, thrusting and thrusting amid the screeching screams of the girl. then she stopped. then said somewhat slowly and in relief... "ok lang, keneth. cge lang. maraming salamat..." i opened my eyes and screamed when i saw the horror lying in front of me.

a severed head laid lifeless on the bench. it was positioned oppositely from my vantage point, her eyes were looking upwards, looking at me. i walked around, and screamed even more when blood spurted off from the severed head of my high school classmate.

i couldn't be mistaken. i know her face clearly...

it was mari...

then i woke up.

a small wound was throbbing at the small of my back.

-shit freaky-

Word Histrionics

i am temporarily procrastinating. my head is so full of 2.25's and matrices due to incessant gwa computing.

come to think of it, i have never laid eyes on my academic average since fourth year high school. relating it to my situation now, maybe it's the loss of caring about my grades, why im suffering such academic delinquency probations at the moment. dang.

if my computation is correct, my ewa is 2.69.. 2.69!! that's like - 2.7... God. all this time i thought it's just 2.6, which is but .1 units away from the maintaining average. well. that's not the case. im doomed, however i compute it. so please, Lord, make it easy for me to say goodbye to econ. and can i just say how nasty my econ106 exam was. whoever gave sir danao the air of sadism. we're under probation! dang it... how dare he do that to us??

anyways, my gwa is still fine at 1.99... dang. that's like - dos.

whatever. my french will suffice.

so, steady lang.

i talked to len about my shifting to EL, geez, may the Lord bring altruist grace on the time of my interviews. i dont want to simply scrap away my econ units. maybe they'd get credited as a minor. j'espere.

anyhows, back to cruelly cold and biting reality, my biology exam's waiting for me round the corner. im doomed to not knowing where to start with the uber long lessons, but i have to start somewhere, because the professors didn't ingrain in me the rudiments of the bloody subject.

let me tell you this *confession of a true blue (maroon) isko coming up...*

UP is not really hard. it's just that professors here are not blessed with high levels of serotonin to give away grades higher than dos. and you thought you get quality education all over UP? that's bullshit. the professors in bio are the most incompetent dickheads that ever walked the academic world. *after the socio assholes of course* i dont have to explain it, because you probably had your own incompetent teacher and you get my drift. it's just that, grr...

how'd you feel when your professor merely mentioned the title of a topic and claims to have discussed it in class? wooooo. im sorrrry. since when was mentioning a title considered discussing it??

shrimp lady! the hell with your intermettent system of instruction. "i have discussed thes, i have discussed that, i have gone all the way here..." maybe in your world!! shrimp lady! i hate you. and as far as im concerned, that system of yours is not only erratic, it's incompetent, obsolete, sporadic, and trashy. i cant wait to say good riddance, you shrimp!

ghhhr. im fussed.

this is the exact reason why psychologists roam the corridors of medschools instead of more deserving biology majors.

ayt bye.

-bloop bloop-

Dora Moment

-power study was fun
-spent 9 and a half hours of the night at mcdo
-thanks angie and michel and niña and floyd
-best study group i ever had
-i learned a new lingo
-i know kuhn-tucker by heart
-no kuhn-tucker in today's exam
-fuck
-goodbye econ
-next course in mind: EL major in French
-paper for 131 almost done
-lacks rrl
-regressing was fun
-my first extra joss last tuesday-wednesday
-my first mcRice burger last tuesday-wednesday
-hopes to get french 12-13 next sem
-am eating ritz bits cheese

-im sleepy-

Letting Go

what world can be more cruel than this.

thinking of my inevitable eviction from econ makes me go numb. it's voiding, the feeling that i will eventually go away, after so much i have invested, after all the things i did to belong. maybe i was wrong in the first place, for investing my emotions on things that needed not, for trying to find a comfort zone when i should have just hustled and let go.

now econ is letting go of me. stupid subjects. stupid electives. i wonder when my decision complex will settle back to normal.

i wonder when i will be able to pick up from where i left off in high school.

if i will ever be able to.

every day from this day is doom's day.

-...-

Surgical Hands

kring---> we are indeed dependent on electricity, one because the government shuns the innovative mindworks of our fellow Filipino discoverers about alternative energy resources, and two, we are too lazy to pull a muscle, and prefer to push a button when we wanted to blow our heads off, making us worry too much when the power disruptions get going. tsk tsk tsk. filipinos.

hey hey hey! ive checked out my ever trusty cellphone's calendar and it's been confirmed - i have two major hell weeks coming up! well ive been expecting it, that if i didnt see major exams on the coming days, id be pissed. sem-end never fails me. it always has its way of depleting my energy resources. it has been very predictable.. that it made me happy, thinking my predictions were right.

i havent started anything, and i have a quiz tomorrow. so tonight will be a long night as i lose myself in the brain of a frog, the circulatory system, and the tract that food chyme follows before it transforms into fecal matter... interesting.

i will miss dissecting frogs. i realized i have a penchant for scraping off muscle tissues from skin using a scalpel. maybe i have surgical hands, i dunno.

alors, me have to go. gots to save myself from getting more singkos this sem.

-bleep-