Mumbo Jumble

*3 am* i like this song...

what's the reason why im blogging at three in the morning? well, i woke up from sleep because i dreamt about me going cuckoo in some familiar restroom because my econ121 exam coincided with a presentation for french... so i was thinking (dreaming) how i was gonna do that. unfortunately for me, it's no bad dream, because i actually have to do that on monday.

and on tuesday, the french exam, then on wednesday, the dreaded international econ exam. brrrr...

during times like this, it's better to talk about happier things, like the michelle branch song now playing over my ears, or the subsiding of my gory allergy, or the purchase of my new fully-functioning water dispenser.

or that the haraya edboard's preferred studio won the election by landslide, and/or i might be getting free gift certificates after all (from the batch shirt design contest, yey!!) im planning to buy a starbucks tumbler. :p

im still thinking about my creative shot, because i have a dilemma: will i be angel gabriel, or will i be the little prince? i dont have costumes for both, and both need to radically change the color of my hair, tsk, but i really want to, you know... be someone particular in my shots.

otherwise id simply be a chicken peeking on what's left of my plans inside three stories of palayok.


nah, that's so not me.

-assoced-

Allergic Reaction

i never thought i'd share my mums allergic reaction to dust. i mean of all things... first crustaceans, then detergents, and now... dust! im itching all over and big red blotches are appearing all over my body. gross. it's even worse than when i first drank alcohol.

the dermatologist suggests i use a topical lotion to hold the itchy areas down, but for chrissake i have hyperhidrosis - greasy stuff make me feel icky and i sweat. fuck how'm i gonna get over this??

and exams are coming... grrrreat...

-trapped-

July Annecdotes

went to UP today. like the normal mondays i trod up fast upon the unkempt lawns of the walkway that leads to the college of arts and letters. i was putting my id lace on place in preparation for the sinister guard that mans the college's front gate, missing the gates that were not open at all. the bars were gold, i have noticed for the first time...

"nakasarado yan buong araw, walang klase," says the guard. the next thing i knew i was walking angrily to the jeepney pool area, cursing under my breath why i had to wake up early today, ignorant of the fact that we dont have classes all over the university.

and then i realized - nobody texted me or called. how lame, of me or the world, not being able to tell me there are no classes... what? has communication gone default?

god. how lame. someone should've texted me.

i arrived home dodging my keys on one hand, and three different kinds of meds on the other. one is a very powerful over-the-counter drug, i just realized today. i bought it to decongest my clogged nose. when i popped the yellow pill into my mouth, not more than 15 minutes later, i was groggy and i had to sleep.

i fell into a very deep sleep, something i hadn't experienced ever before. it felt good, a kind of detachment process, when every waking vein in my body simply blacked out and fell into hibernation. terrific, for a person like me who is constantly under the throes of insomnia.

it makes me think, "this is how people get addicted to drugs."

when i woke up, i was thinking of getting myself a coffee fix - a latte. white chocolate based mocha with a splash of raspberry syrup sprinkled with confectionery sugar... hmmm. the deep sleep was good but i had to wake up from it.

three hours later, after watching a very inspiring movie about love (wow, love still exists does it? for a while i was under the impression that love is simply the word that gives slum books a brighter shade of pink.) i went out to cut my hair. "too long and too messy, and it makes my head triangular," i cursed my growing mane of bister-colored hair, and i was every degree happy to go to the coiffeurs.

when i went home, my phone was flooding with about 9 messages already - not a usual occurrence. and then inside my head i was, "how ironic, this morning, i didn't have any message at all..."

and so i got acquainted to the ironies of life again. a very humbling thought.

-late july-

HP Finale

i have just finished reading harry potter and the deathly hallows, the very last installment to the publishing phenomenon: harry potter.

there were so many deaths, so many sinister characters, but ultimately, it has so happy an ending. i commend jk rowling for being able to piece together all the hanging threads. there maybe a lot of loopholes if you are too avid of a reader, but it doesnt really matter. the good thing is, many kids started reading again, and, well, it's just so wonderful to have shared seven (plus 19!!) magical years with harry, ron, and hermione. im so glad i lived to a life where i could marvel at such glorious masterpiece.

felicitation to jk rowling, you are one heck of a writer.

long live, harry potter!!

-no spoilers... yet.-

Zone Five

HAAAAAYY...

kakapagod. i just arrived from a studio occular... saya! repro is my favorite studio and i hope my batchmates vote for them as our official photographers for the yearbook.

the following photos, though, are OUR own photos taken when we were at the studio of Images by Child's Play. saya!


bok bok bok...


si dayen, panlagay sa piso... bwahaha





more soon! yay!

-bok bok-

D&G Campaigns

oooh, dolce & gabbana... i like.



d&g ads always have an edge. one time it's sublime, one time it's violent, sometimes it's homo, this time it's simply hot. this is one of my favorite campaigns. the photographer would've been having the time of his life.

we're actually planning of using D&G themes for the creative shot of HARAYA's editorial board.yes! we are entitled a shot for the yearbook! how fun is that? i can already imagine how we would look like...

-colorized blue channel-

Studio Occular

woohoo!! saya!!

dreamlight studios - 8:00-12:30 - pickup - very good accomodation - free snacks - funny make-up artist - walk-in closet of wardrobe - free food - student-oriented

images by child's play - 1:15 - 5:45 - pickup - technologically advanced independent graphics laboratory - independent printing press - free food - collection of hats - wacky costumes - laugh trip - color blindness

spider piiig, spider piiig...

-the simpsons . november 25-

Test Shots

test shots na tomorrow!!

i have no idea why we had to be 7:00-ish-early. eic says the shoot will also serve as our ocular for the two studios that are bidding for econ's batch photos. im excited, because finally, haraya comes to life.

im still hoping my tee designs win the contest... i already have in mind what im gonna spend the gc's with.

i made chicken and lettuce sandwiches this morning for my lunch but i forgot all about them; i just remembered about them when i was organizing the things in my bag this afternoon. the sandwiches were reduced to a hodgepodge of greens and carbohydrate material. not a very pleasing sight.

...

i wish some people could act their ages. im amazed at how some people simply fail to lunch. not sophisticated enough, not responsible enough, not critical enough. if i could just tell them...

Please, act your age.

-dollop-

June 2005

just now, a close friend told me that one of our batchmates happened upon my blog and read this entry where i ranted about him in abandon. apparently he googled his name up and my blog appeared.

as of the moment, i am avoiding as much enemies as possible, because i just realized how negative having someone to grudge on is. as of the moment also, our batchmate thinks im mad at him (when im not!) so i looked up my blog and searched for his name there, try to see if i really said something really negative about him. it turns out i did, (me and my big mouth) but the entry was scribed more than two years ago...

give me the liberty to say that my emotions then are affected by hormones in many ways. being a 16 or 17 year-old warrants usual mood swings, and it is so much possible that the emotions i had then, are not the emotions circulating inside me anymore. well, while i was reading the entry, i thought for a split second i was really a bad person to have ranted so badly about our batchmate (i even called him bitchy..) so i send my apologies to my batchmate,

sorry for my being such a big mouth, i admit my faults and am utterly sorry for having sounded like an ill-tempered nigger criticizing things i dont fully understand...

un lang.

ps. god i was reading the entries in my blog two years ago, and they all sounded like a jaded nigger blabber-mouthing everything. man... what a year that was.

-sorry-

Sugary Sunday

too much sugar is really bad for your health. i have proven the fact this morning. yesterday i ate about 6 fingerlings of pastillas de leche (my favorite, yum) and indulged with mcflurry before i slept. when i woke up, i had a feeling of fatigue and my head was throbbing with a severe headache; i learned just now that instability in body glucose levels actually lead first to headaches and mood swings... hmm...



but how can i refuse pastillas de leche? i once thought the closest way to heaven on earth is to eat pastillas...

random thoughts:

harry potter and the deathly hallows slashed off five hundred pesos off my allowance this week...

i wish i win the batch shirt design contest (when was the last time i got a starbucks fix?).

how will i raise money for sidhi???

black wings or white wings? how is my creative shot going to look like?

tilda swinton, you're the man!

i hope august 1 never comes. international economics is driving me ....

a locker, i desperately need a locker.

physics exam tomorrow, who again was the philosopher who killed a person to steal the person's theory so he could get all the honor for time to come?

-pythagoras...-

Potter 5

disclaimer: plenty of spoilers below. don't read if you haven't watched harry potter and the order of the phoenix yet.

oh geezers.

harry potter started showing at the theater houses just yesterday and i wasted not one week to watch it. this time, the movie's director is renowned political films director david yates, so expect the jadedness of hp5...

well, the movie was rather cold. it's is so serious, it actually edged on a psychological movie; the film is teeming with scenes where the characters are either breathing hoarsely or breaking a sweat or doing thespic eye maneuvers. there is also plenty of rain. i also noticed that the color channels are darker now, more on the blue side of earth colors, giving the picture a rather unsettling twilit mood. and the musical score, unlike the previous scores, is very very subtle in most of the duration of the film.

well, i liked the movie one because the characters didn't have to wear massive make-up changes so as not to compromise the younger book characters with their real biological age. two, characters are brightly portrayed, like nymphadora tonks and dolores umbridge, and i cannot think of other actresses who would have played their parts better. three, the movie used silence very well; the escalation of movements were emphasized. finally, i like it because it is the only harry potter movie that made me shiver with fright while on my seat... the scenes depicting the duels at the ministry of magic are very moving, i almost felt my foot jerking the seat in front of me. the image of dumbledore appearing out of the floo network is vivid in my head, i remember by the time he was doing a fight scene with voldemort, i was already shivering hard and my heart was pounding like crazy.

well everthing happened so fast and two seconds later they're all back at hogwarts again.

haay. i cant wait for the next movie... but first i'll buy the last installment of the series... 8 days to go!!

-potterized-

27 Units

it's 3am and i have two pages more of the yamazawa article on catching-up product cycles, just one of the many readings i have to understand to pass international economics. hay.

so many things are going on right now. first the council, which is a major source of stress because my marketing contacts seemed to have defaulted altogether. after i faxed each and every one of them a proposal for the brand sale at the end of the month, they all just vanished. "he's on a meeting right now... in tagaytay." "he's on leave, sir..." "he's out-of-town sir, call again next week." i've started thinking maybe there's something wrong the proposals i sent them, i dunno. but man, they always had an excuse for everything.

bhala sila. it's their lost profit naman eh.

i also have sidhi, the school publication, actually the very poor school publication. i was elected co-managing editor so i have to think of a way to raise money so that we could publish two issues per semester (which is equivalent to ... 24k... per semester. grreat.)

if there's one thing that's keeping me excited these days, it's the batch yearbook. see i was appointed the managing editor's position and all i have to do is edit the feature write-ups and help the eic facilitate the activities of the editorial board. so far, the plans for the yearbook are a-ok. it's actually soaring, and based from the healthy number of ideas the edboard come up with, i can say my batchmates will like the yearbook.

i am also currently preoccupied with the batch shirt designing contest. i was thinking the other day, "hey our batch shirts have always been drab if not overly abstract or simply non-existent at all. i thought maybe i should take the initiative to design a marginally better-looking tee. im not really good in fashion and i have not a single unit of credit from the fine arts but i think graphic arts and color palettes make perfect sense to me. so here it is:



it's not much, but i think it's better than the past years' designs. and i spent a lot of thinking for this, just so you know i didnt rush this through the weekend or whatever... it's a product of a very long creative, assimilative, and deductive thinking process...

so vote for my designs, please. i could afford having the gift certificates.

and then everything boils back down again to my acads, especially international econ. man, this is graphing to the core. we're merely approaching midsem and we already have a helluva lot of theories and models to keep up with. all with weird sounding names. hecksher-olin model, the ricardian theory, stolper's model of mind-boggling factor proportion sequences, fuck. i dont even remember what they are about.

buti na lang, i have classmates who are willing to do study groups with me. see that's rare. unlike in lasalle or ateneo or any other school, study groups are very uncommon in UP (mainly because we do not follow the blocking scheme, so most of us study independently).

hay. i think i have to sleep.

ps. i just had a very weird "displacement" experience the other day. i remember i was so tired and hungry that i simply crashed on the bed and fell asleep. when i woke up, guess what, im in gateway! yeah! as in gateway mall. scary noh? its freaking me everytime i think about it, you know how i got there, why i didnt have the slightest of memory how i got there. yyyy it's scary. good thing nothing bad happened to me. well my point is, we should not let stress take over our systems. we should try to relax and cut ourselves some slack sometimes otherwise, weird things will happen...

-busy-

Filipino Month

i can't sleeeeeep...

errr... ok i just typed down an uber long entry just now, but also just now, i deleted it (all 5 paragraphs) because i dont think it's relevant to anything. wla lang.

let me just do this entry with the highlight of my day: me and pia celebrated the buwan ng wika a month ahead. wala bangag eh. we were conversing in complete filipino sentences, and we sounded really poetic... like the balagtasan. complete with the accents.

come to think of it, filipino is a very rich language. it's actually good to hear if used properly (kris aguino is at fault of ruining the proper filipino syntax, and she's so influential... tsk) filipino is actually a very respectful language. it's melismatic at best, complete with flourishes and rich sounds... ive been informed recently that the language actually has the most complete alphabet in terms of phonology- meaning - all the basic sounds are contained. so filipino is actually a phonologically complete body of words... cool right?

this also explains why it is very easy for us to adapt a second language (e.g., english) or even a third and fourth language (spanish then french...). we are at advantage compared to the chines or japanese, whose buccal phonological structures restricts them from producing the wide array of sounds we can produce. and aside from that, we filipinos, in general, are just so good at imitating others, so most of us filipinos are multilingual.

uhh... yeah. so filipino is a good language. everyone should study it well yes.

this is so unaimed.

-designing a tee.-

Gray Greening

im feeling feverish.

cleaned the unit yesterday until it's spick-and-span. felt good coz its sort of a workout. but i went out to buy my dinner and it started drizzling (i left my umbrella at the unit). must have given me the colds summat.

something's wrong with ipod. it doesn't sync photos and contacts.. grrrr. i thought apple originals are supposed to be top of the line..? tried restoring the ipod and downloading a new itunes version, but they do not seem to correct the malfunction. tsk. what am i gonna do with this?

*4 in the morning - gwen stefani*

oh, hungry.

-sick-

Transformers Mania

whoakey.. whokey... phew.

lemme just, lemme just let it sink in...

...

every once in a while, a very good movie comes our way, to subvert us from decaying upon the pressures of school, family, etc. today, i watched transformers! and you can just imagine my cheer when we were in the cool seats of the block's theater house. man. it's like reliving my childhood moments. transformers i love.

im so impressed by the 3g animation. eventhough they were robots, i still felt emotion behind their metallic voices, or on their iron faces. it's really astounding. at first i was looking forward to hearing that very familiar sound from the cartoons, you know, it goes like: kraggriggrickrogruk... something like that. well, i didnt hear much of that, but it doesnt really matter anyways, coz the rest of the movie was so good, i was on the edge of my seat the whole duration of the movie, and my jaw was dropped the whole time. im gonna download it from torrent so i can watch it over and over and over again.

geezers im glad ninya invited me into this. i was with her, fatima, gerold, and anika to watch the film... i know, pretty weird combination right? no no, we're not the new click in econ. it's just it just happened. ninya had a point when she said since we're seniors, it wont hurt to go out with people from the other clicks coz it's the last year of our stay in UP, might was well mingle with the rest of the world.

anyways, next week, harry potter will be the next attraction!! wow, films are abounding this month. ooh i cant wait to buy the latest installation to the harry potter series...

nakaka-hype!

-bumblebee-

Anxiety Attack

*twaft twaft twaft*
-me playing with a glass of water


waah, nababangag ako. i have two meeting scheds tomorrow and im thinking, whoa i just got myself into year-long commitments, one of which may even extend beyond. and i still have to work for the council. what shit have i gotten myself into? huhu scurred...

there are butterflies in my brain (?). my mind has this habit of retaining thoughts for very long durations of time, and when it does, the thoughts keep nagging the crown of my head. gnaw gnaw gnaw.. sometimes i even imagine a rat gnawing at my medulla, trying to squeak out something. eek weird.

at the moment, one specific rodent is getting so much of my attention. it says:

"i want to meet new people... gnaw..."

its just that i feel so jaded in some areas of my life. i want to transcend my bounds, or at least change some of my routines. but what shall i change?

we were being baked in PH416 this afternoon during PI, and Kat, a classmate, told me: "sobrang bored na bored na ko sa buhay ko," (at the back of my mind i wanted to say, ah, QLC, been there... but there was a tone in her voice that was beyond QLC) "gusto ko talagang pumunta sa amerika, magbuhay ala-ONE TREE HILL... (why she said that, i dunno, but at least she knows what she's bored about and what she wants to do for a change...)

i, on the other hand, am clueless about what routines to change (because frankly im a very constant person and i havent ventured out reflecting on my life finding things to change) although, well, i have the tiniest bit of a hint i got this morning. i have it but i dont want to do it because it would appear like an ulterior motive of some sort, and some people with just find me puzzling and they'd err on the worse side of things (blah, you're not getting me now don't you?)

*Little of your Time - maroon 5*

ak so little time, and im not doing anything! i want to have my ETS now! i want to try out spicy food (just for a change), i want to eat sugpo! (but i can't huhu), oooh spanish is interesting... actually, SHE is interesting. and the comics are interesting too. !@#$ i want to para-glide (gimme money.) ak rodents!!

-i need to clean the unit. relax, kimoy...-